Mr. LoNely

我怎么了。。。

2010-12-14T20:27:00.000-08:00

星期三-晴天吧。。。

又一次中午才起身。。。不是我想睡到热晒三竿，可是在夜晚里实在睡不着。。失眠吗？
确定的是自己最近都很不开心。。。

最近传的很火热的fb自杀事件，让我想起表姐。。。
但是却不觉得那男的可怜，而是白痴。。。。。。

早上MPH来调查关于狗的。。。十有八九是隔壁的白痴report。。。
无言，但是想说买屋子真得看好跟谁是令居。。。。

简的来说，心情真的是很不好。。。。。

想回到过去？。。

2010-07-18T03:01:00.000-07:00

应该超过一个月没有回到外婆家了吧。。。
感觉好像都变了？

一个早晨。。。吃了早餐后也就顺便走到了外婆家后院看看。。
羽毛球场的边线已经变得模糊了。。。小时候表哥、表姐、表弟、表妹们一起嬉戏的影子再也看不见了。。。

我们都长大了。。。也都体会到种种的分离。。。大表姐去新山了。。二表姐去世了。。。表哥去新加坡工作了。。。

脑海里什么都没有。。只是想着珍惜现在还能拥有的。。。

最近脑袋都是你。。。为什么。。。不是已经过去了吗？。。。。

2010-05-02T08:08:00.000-07:00

曾经，
喜欢过一个跟我同年同月同日出生的女孩。。。

曾经，
想过真的要等她。。。

曾经，
以为她真的是喜欢我的。。。

曾经，
真的以为会在一起。。。

最近头脑真的都是她。。发梦都是她。。。为什么。。。=(
那么的突然。。。
那么的诡异。。。

在facebook不小心找到了她的profile...可是。。。还在犹豫要不要add她。。。
只是按下滑鼠。。竟然需要那么多的。。勇气。。。。。。。。

没用。。。。=(

白色三人行25不减肥咖啡拍照日？

2010-05-01T22:18:00.000-07:00

只是看title肯定不会明白是怎么一回事吧？哈哈。。。

白色。。因为我们都穿着白色的衣服。。。

三人行。。当然是我，bell，还有jia啦。。=D

25?..她们说今天不要花费超过25?...我想我超过了XD

不减肥咖啡日。。不减肥忘记是谁的提议，咖啡吗？bel bel 带我们去了一家不错的咖啡店哦！=)听说是极少数人回去的。。通常都可以在那里碰上出名的blogger~那天就碰到了两个~但是我不认识哦~=）少玩blog啦~没有bel那么专业。。。

其实在很久之前已经想过要搞这个三人行了。。可是哈哈。。。bell跟jia都很忙呢。。。到现在才是我们三个第一次一起出去哦。。。=="

没有电影，没有血拼。。。
取而代之的是闲聊，聚聚。。然后和下午茶。。。。

不记得jia对我说了多少次不好意思。。。可是事实上我的确没有闷着。。
哈哈。。在听着你们最近发生的事情。。。也是我的乐趣之一。。。不说话？应该是这些日子都是自己一个人吧。。。没有说话的习惯了。。。。

无论如何都满期待下次的outing o...

phew...holiday?! so what =)

2010-04-26T05:28:00.000-07:00

Now I found that I like typing...hahahaha...

it's pretty cool and pretty fun when you do typing in a super fast speed and don't need to look at the keyboard which I am now doing =) hahahahaha....

Well I am now having my so called "holiday"...but then I more prefer to college life...at least I hang out, at least I got something else to do...

Honestly I don't like staying at home...for no reason..I am just like a puppet..don't talk, don't smile....and just locking myself in da room...it's like a jail? or...hotel room? ishk....

This afternoon just received a letter from UCSI...yep... My guess was right, it's da bill for my next semester fees....Omg ....I wonder what's wrong with their mind...I selected the same subjects with my friends..for my fren, the warehousing subject was declined and mine was approved...wth...??!!!

hahaha...feel kinda insecure to study in this college but then what to do...I have decided not to change college again from the moment I stepped into this college...the only choice I have now is to finish them as soon as possible then step out to the society and start working ....

Many of them asked me, "Houng, any plan during your holiday? "
hahaha...the answer is no...~!
No vacation, no plan and not even thinking about any outing with friends yet...=)
If that's possible will just keep staying at home...and YEAH!!! I said I wanted to keep fit...and now I am trying so so hard =) eat less~ force myself to do pumping and set up...=) with I will be succeed~

Dying my hair could be cool I think? hahaha...to change a new look....since I never put any color on my hair ? erm...what about do some changes on my clothes? well these will cost some money..hahaha...

My uncle always remind me to enjoy my college life while I still can~ =) yea I know I should~ And probably I am gonna meet some new friends? as I always do =) hahahaha..
I feel that my friends are just like the theory in account....when debit exists, for sure there will be credit..hahaha....what I am trying to say is....every sem I got new friends...and then at the same time I lost some friends too.....wonder why ..=) even we said we will be best friend for forever...promise means nothing for human being =) hahaha

LASTLY~ JUST TO REMIND PEOPLE!!!
EARTH IS SICK NOW.....PLEASE TAKE CARE OF IT ...OR ELSE I THINK WHAT'S HAPPENING IN DA MOVIE 2012 WILL BE REVEALED SOON!~!!~!~!~!~!

Honey? or friend?

2010-04-17T02:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was actually the day I have been waiting for a long time ..the day that I was going to meet my Mina..the best girl I have ever met....

Before we met, you told me something about our relationship, you said we were just friend and unlike last time...

Ends up you were the one who hold my hand and the one who called me HONEY....You said so but you didn't want to do so..right?
You still missing the days we holding each other hand and stick like a lovely bird...right?

And so far...you were the only girl who made me feel the most comfortable when going out with...I could hold your hand, some time hug you, or even a kiss maybe when I couldn't control myself? I didn't need to hide anything or care the sight from others...which I seriously didn't like.

I could even remember what you have taught me, what we did and many things....you changed me and I am now still affecting by you..

Always enjoy the moment in the cinema with you...coz I can hold your little hand when watching movie..

You were just so sweet and lovely...but when you left me...I was back to alone again...I got no one to love...

Sorry....

2010-04-08T23:54:00.000-07:00

It's not like I don't want to text you with da lovely way....
It's not like I don't want to be close with you....

Not just yesterday but I have been thinking about this question and asking myself for a couple days already...
Yep...honestly I feel happy when Hong receive your lovely message everyday...
You were like so care about me...wanted to know what I was doing every minute, every second...

That would be perfect if you were my gf...but the fact was...nope..

What if one day you find a guy that you like...Will you still care about me like present?
will you......?

This is just too complicated and ....insecure....

And the best solution I have figured out is....let's be friend...kay?

.....lastly, I would like to apologize to you Vivian.....Now I know what did you mean by "this is just so insecure" last time...I just experienced it....

emo is back...

2010-03-29T23:29:00.000-07:00

I can still remember how I get this name...
It was given by Jesmyn, because she said I look emo when she first met me...

That's true but after some time I became better....
But now the problem comes again....

So.. Emo is back.....
Actually start from Sunday 10pm....I forced myself not to sleep as long as I can...
But then I was only able to make it 1 day plus....28 hours+ only ...

Okay, I know I am nuts...but this way is much better than hurting myself I guess....bored with the way already...

Woi, find some activities for me to join lar wei...I don't want to make myself crazy coz of her, the one who used to be my only one.....the only one I trusted and loved the most....yea..past tense, USED TO......

Friends =)

2010-03-05T19:16:00.000-08:00

Unexpectedly this sem I have met quite many of new friends huh =)

Some time I feel like the rule is true....You gain something new when you lost something....

Recently become slightly closer with hewmeiteng, yatyishan without reason =)
Both also crazy maybe? enjoyed the other day when we were chatting in OLD TOWN during break time....But I need some time to used to the way they laugh..WITH BREAK!!and AK 47 bullet keep shooting on your face...==" HAO SHUI GIN..XD

another gang huh...Panda, Suefei, and Angeline....

Panda always call me pandI==" which mean pig in TAMIL...most probably learnt from Angeline..and she says if we combine together will become PANDAI==" what kind of theory is this...=D

Suefei =)a sweet girl but like seldom see her smiling..She can speak english well but some time mix with chinese and malay =P A girl who likes to eat ice cream so so much ...I owe her many cup of it =) hahaha!

Angeline...=) An active Indian girl ....hahaha...her sonsy and like positive thinking behaviour leave me a good impression..XD And I was shocked when she said this to me :" Ni de yan jing....hen mei.." HAHA.....stunned...and say thank you to her...she learnt it from panda>.<"

there are still many of them ....and Im happy to have more more more friends=D come on babeh~ hahaha!

sorry my friends....my laziness makes my blog full with dust .....

2010-03-05T18:50:00.001-08:00

Yeap....have been some time never update my blog...and some of my friends started nagging me...=P

Recall to the chap gor mei...the last day of chinese new year...
most probably people were celebrating for this special date for....
But chap gor mei wasn't a good date for me ...

When I was only 12 years old...My aunt left me and went to heaven...
My parents have to work hard since I was a kid...they went to KL and my aunt was the one who taking care of me since I was a kid...In JOHOR...I call her as AH YANG...

She taught me a lot of things =) without pressuring me ...
We stayed at KAMPUNG which unlike the big city, which has many entertainment...
Guli and toys was all my life in that broken, old frame house...But warmth was everywhere...

Some time wealth isn't a good thing...It might separate or make the gap between family members bigger...
My uncles worked hard and earned a lot of money from singapore...bought a freaking big house for my grandma....and that's the begining of warmth in that house start cooling..

I could still clearly remember...that night when I was leaving hospital and back to KL from JOHOR..Aunt said this to me...

APPRECIATE YOUR FAMILY MEMBER APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE...IF NOT YOU WILL REGRET WHEN YOU LOST THE CHANCE....

She past away just about when I reached KL.....
You left me, but you will never disappear in my heart..my mind...

whee~outing with my sweet friends!!!

2010-02-20T18:48:00.000-08:00

WELL~ finally I get back to KL...and so~ of course the first thing to do is to make an outing with friends!!!!

I dated suetying, mei ling, pei yi, pei shi, zhen yih to go gai gai!!!!

ish! forgot to charge my phone's battery...so did not take many photo...==" T^T

Both of us meet at TIME SQUARE at 2? some of them were hungry so went to 士林to have some food =)

planned to watch movie actually...but non of us book for the ticket..so =)FULL~LOL。。。

At the end we decided to sing K=)
although it was a bit not worth to sing...but chinese new year only once in a year...=D

The room was fulled so we need to wait until 5 pm..and we "LEPAK" at lowyat for a quite long time =) accompany pei yi and suet ying looking for their laptop accessory...

KARAOKE SECTION~~

Suet ying and I =)
seriously I like this lovely friend so so much =) lots of reason =D cannot be explained in a minute...=P

zhen yih and I~

PEIYI>>>SUETYING>>>MEI LING~

fu came to join us in the half way =) lol...

After sent the ladies home...kekekeke....
next round was ah yien's house...GAMBLING GAMBLING~

Peope who participated were ME~DESMUND~ZHI XIN AND HIS GF, AND WEIFU only...

reached yien's house and saw weifu's car there.....boring and so... I DID THIS!!!!! =)

Finished our gambling at 3am ==" lost some money~ T0T...

CNY wad~ don't care so much!!! just ENJOY IT!!

HUAT AR~~~~!!!!!!!

sori panda =) now I update .=) CNY !!! nothing special though...=="e

2010-02-20T18:05:00.002-08:00

Erm...all of my good friend should know that I pass my chinese new year at my hometown every year =)

That's why I never have the chance to go bai nian with my friends in KL >.<
But though...it was quite warm to spend this special festival with family =D

My family and I reached hometown on Saturday afternoon..it was quite late actually...should go back earlier to help my uncle decorate or prepare the stuffs =P

Can you see what I am doing ~~ hahaha...it's for decoration and it was my very first time trying this~!! IKEBANA? nope....just a kid simply playing =)

Uncle aunty were busying preparing food for TUAN YUAN FAN but I just holding my phone+camera capture this~ capture that to keep as a good memory...

They prepare so so...many food but every year also we could not finish them ...LOL!

At night...cousin bring something special for us...hahaha....
He brought uncook charqui...or can be called as BA GUA~
And we had a little BBQ section...kinda special huh XD

12 am...hokkian need to bai bai ...erm...I didn't really know what we were praying actually =)
but who cares~ TIMES FOR FIRECRACKER!!!!

I like on of this pictures =) I captured myself holding the firecracker but at the same time I didn't expose my face! so mata cannot catch me!! NEH NEH NEH BU BU~!! =P

AIR POLLUTION!!! HAHAHA...

I captured some of them only because I was busying...busying playing =)

THE NEXT DAY WENT TO VISIT RELATIVE FROM DAD'S SIDE...

Could'nt really imagine this...my cousins...almost all of them were married and have few children...few years ago we were still GIN NA(budak) that only know how to play only swt...

hahaha....I keep telling my friends that I was boring at hometown but actually..I SHOULD APPRECIATE ALL OF THIS WHILE I STILL CAN...what's more important than family...

FAMILY SUPPORT YOU WHEN YOU NEED HELP....FORGIVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU DID....DOING LOTS OF THING THAT'S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD....

My recent life ...

2010-02-06T17:36:00.000-08:00

You know what..I always think that I am a dual character guy...such a freak people....

I was being emotional all the while recently....the only moment I laughed and felt happy was when I playing game with friends....

I keep quiet when I am home...facing laptop and my notes or text book due to nothing else I can do...

Thinking of dating but who to date?

Think in positive way that might be good for me...
Because it motivated me to study hard...

Time passes very fast, after two years I am going out to society and make myself as an employee...
two years ain't long...without realizing I have finished my foundation already...

Anyway financial problem that occurs in my family does bothering me ....
But end's up I suggest my mom some very simple solutions...

1st~ I study hard and obtain a good result...
2nd~I come out to work then I support the family as a man...
3rd~Im gonna make myself rich as fast as possible...

hahaha...

this is why I love the lyrics of "I believe I can fly"...

IF I CAN SEE IT, THEN I CAN DO IT,

IF I JUST BELIEVE IT, THERE NOTHING TO IT .....=)

Had a nice moment with some one ...

2010-01-30T17:03:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went back jusco working for only one day ...due to my boss got not enough staff...

Dated some one for movie after I finished working...just at JUSCO...

Bought the ticket of TOOTH FAIRY...
Definitely much better than LEGION....love this movie and I love THE ROCK so so much...
every movie will be just so nice if he participates...=)

anyway...thank you for accompany my fren ...=)I appreciate that a lot....

WILL U ACCOMPANY ME AGAIN....??

=)

2010-01-24T10:57:00.001-08:00

She was the best or could say the funniest girl I have ever met....My dear Mina jon....

The end of the previous year...we seperated because of studies...
I seldom cry but I was crying like hell that time...=(

Recently we do contact with each other no matter in Msn or sms...
She.. asks me to get a gf...but at the same time...do not want any girl to hurt me ....>.<

Sorry I cannot do that ...hahahaha...no matter how many girls I got feel with them...
At the end I think that you are still the best one for me ...=D

I have set your photo as wallpaper in my phone...
To remind me how good you are, to remind me set studies as the priority=)

I promise you I will find a good girl if there is a chance...=)
Don't want you to worry about me anymore ..=)

We are that close but we are impossible to become couple anymore...
We are friend but somehow feel like it exceeds the limit =)?

never care what is coming tomorrow..=) just enjoy the day while we still can =)

I need some colours in my life....I need my Mina..=(

2010-01-24T10:28:00.000-08:00

Saturday I went to Kulai to attend my relative's wedding dinner...

Dear was so happy when she heard I was somewhere in JB....she wished to meet me at somewhere..but somehow I could not make it...I got no transport and I did not know how to get there....=(

she was so so upset when she heard that...awww...=(

Im sorry but I swear I will accompany you when you come to KL...ANY TIME....!!

The wedding dinner was quite boring....

she is the sister-in-law I always stick with since I was a kid till now =)
nothing but just feel closer if compare with the others.. =)

Saturday night after finished attending the dinner...was straight away go back to JOHOR...my grandma's house...feel more comfortable there...=X

The next day,Sunday.. I have tried these funny and cute chocolate with alcohol...they look really cute ...hahaha XD

The flavor is really different according to its design...not simply written on it....=D
but still=( I can't accept the taste when choco mix with alcohol ...hahaha

=) xixixi...satisfy with what I have got now =)

2010-01-20T22:09:00.000-08:00

wowhu! yesterday night have a movie with my bros desmund liew and chin kee yan =)

what the fuck...we watched JU-ON...all the while I was using my jacket to cover half of my sight =.="

never try to watch scary movie with girl coz probably I will scream but not them =( hahaha!!

I got the free gift from the GSC~it was a small cup... =( what for >.<
erm...
planned to upload the pictures from ju-on but I cancel this plan last minute...I still wanna blogging =( hahahaha...later I afraid with my own blog pulak ?! xixixi

yep..I seldom outing recently~
even My ex suspects that I am gay =P hahaha...

funny thing is she keep asking me to find a gf here...
but still....I am waiting.....NO ONE BUT YOU =)

Friends? I don't care about the quantity anyway..but instead the QUALITY....

三人游变了一个人的约会。。。

2010-01-14T06:28:00.000-08:00

今天中午十二点半左右。。受到了嘉嘉的信息，说bel不能去outing了。。。
无奈，我已经弄好头发，lens了。。。

打了蛮多问了蛮多人。。。但是结果还是跟估计的一样。。没有人可以陪。。。

好吧。。。自己一个出吧~！

第一个目的地，剪头发~
在那之前到了银行提款，拿了我修改的裤子，才到salon~

剪完头发富跟我说他得空，可以看戏~！还有他女朋友也有来呢~
5.20的戏-the vampire assistant。。。在 TIME SQUARE~

开场之前到了附近的UNCLE DUCK吃东西。。。

他们陪我看完戏后也就回家了。。

好吧~！！！一人shopping开始~！~！~！~！

RANDOM PICTURE...

最后的收获

两件t shirt一条jeans~=)

十点了啦~回家~！

一个人走街shopping..感觉蛮不错=D 下次就自己出吧~！！

还是没有变。。。

2010-01-13T16:53:00.000-08:00

中三时，受过了伤害。。。样子问题吧。。。
第一次的暗恋，带来了很不好的回忆，养成了我现在的习惯。。。

中三伤害过我的那位，毕业后命运安排了我们读着同一间学院。。。
我是变了样。。。可是我还是记得以前怎么被你伤害。。。我报复了。。
我冷落了她，使她为了我而流泪。。。我是故意的。。。

自从那次以后没有对过任何女孩真心过。。

离开rahman，我到了british council进修我的英文。
我碰到了她，MINA...
可能是来自不同的国家，不同的生活环境吧。。她是个完全没有心机的女孩。。。

我们像发梦那样在一起了几个月。。最后为了读书而分开了。。。

离开了british council，选上了UCSI,一个新的环境，新的生活。
毕竟KL人还是会比较“复杂”。。。找不到一个真心的。。。

我又开始了“我无所谓”，“爱理不理”的生活。。。

突然间很想说出这些。。。就真的很突然。。。

每一个人的第一次，好与坏的结果，将会让将来的他生活在第一次结果的影响下，比如不同的生活，不同的习惯。。。

现在想要的口头禅。。。。关我什么事。。。

never put 100% effort on anyone....no matter how good is she =)

2010-01-09T22:31:00.000-08:00

this is what I experienced......
No matter how good some one treat you .....the fact is ...people change from time to time ...

Do not put much expectation will be the best solution to avoid from getting hurt or what...

My past make me trust no one...
honesty cannot be seen from some one's face...

Few days ago some one just sad for our stuff but few days later... she is in relationship =)
I do not feel sad...maybe I am that cruel as well....I can just forget something very quickly if I want to =)....just like right click and press DELETE....it is that simple .....

what I am seeking now is true friend...not a lover ....
whee~~ wuhu~~?hahahahaha....

whee is definitely a trademark from some one=) hahahaha
and wuhu~ maybe?=)

will appreciate them ...gals that I will love them like hell but not in bf gf relationship...

Im just so damn fucking disappointed in seeking true love...=)so why don't I just forget about it =) hahahaha.....

pass my college life happily with my friends~!

whee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

病了。。。表面上？心灵上？

2010-01-04T17:03:00.000-08:00

伤风，咳嗽了有一些日子。。。结果？还是没有复原。。。

面对那么多说:“我喜欢你”的人，却不知道到底是不是真的。。。

伤风咳嗽可以吃药。。。心痛呢？。。。

可以的话。。。在说声“我喜欢你”之前，可以再想想看你是不是真心的吗。。。

不是的话请离开我。。。愈远愈好。。。不要把我逼成把感情当做玩具的人。。。不会认真。。。

然而。。。伤害过我的。。。我也会躲的远远的。。。(vivian...你不被包括在内哦=) ......你是真的。。。)

希望不久的将来。。不会拍下我血淋淋的手。。。放在部落格。。。。。我神经的时候。。。是来真的哦~ O(∩_∩)O~

倒数！！2010到来！！

2010-01-04T04:58:00.000-08:00

那么幸运的我。。。今天没有做工，约了朋友去倒数，吃东西，聚聚会~

下午两点就到了gs 家，一起打车到setapak去~

打了一下pool, 打了一下电脑。。。回到了siong的家=)

傍晚说好了跟他弟弟和朋友一起吃火锅~想不到的是他弟弟的朋友是叶子鑫。。我的朋友=="

twins?!哈哈。。。

可怜的我们来不及上山。。。traffic jam 啊！。。车停在了路边看烟花。。。哈哈。。

看完烟花到了siong家附近的cafe喝喝酒。。。叫DOLPHINE 对吧？打扑克牌~聊天~白痴。。。

四点左右吧？才回他家过夜。。安拉~他弟弟没有喝酒。。所以没有酒后驾驶。。。=)

算是开心的一天吗？。。。其实我不是很开心。。。喝酒后暂时忘记了一切。。。所以总的来说。。算开心的吧。。。。。

跟bel bel的晚餐~

2010-01-04T04:45:00.000-08:00

放工了之后去找了belbel...可是不会路。。。迷路了。。。走了一个小时才到达。。。

笨蛋的我。。路痴的我。。。

载了bel bel一起到 leisure mall 旺角吃晚餐。。

聊了很多，很开心有你这个朋友=)..真的。。

我们两个太多共同点了不是？。。路痴，慢半拍，扭扭捏捏，O(∩_∩)O哈哈~。。。。

交换礼物啊~！~！呵呵。。。

2009-12-28T18:04:00.000-08:00

25号那天。。。做工那里要交换礼物呢~
买了两只小猪？最后觉得很像不是很够=）买多一个小公仔加上去~

蛮多的嘛~=)

然后就一直拍照片。。哈哈。。都没有什么理客人哈哈~！老板叫拍照的哦~！>.< 虽然那里花了30~40块。。可是用这钱来换点回忆。。。不错啊~！ (n_n)~ siew meng拿到了我的礼物哦~！还好=) 她还蛮喜欢的~ O(∩_∩)O~

再过几天我就开学了啦~ 呵呵。。。会回来找你们啦=）

对哦！第二天。。老板请我们唱K!一晚就花了300多==。。。
找不到那么好的工了吧？O(∩_∩)O哈哈~

带去的ice cream cake~不错吃~ =P

回家咯~！唱到三点呢！！够力！=( 哈哈。。。得空再来吧~

怎么我很像没什么朋友。。。哈哈。。

2009-12-23T18:03:00.000-08:00

christmas eve...难得今天我没有做工呢。。可是电话簿里面就是找不到人陪我看戏。。。
也没差~一岁到现在真的没有庆祝过呢~呵呵。。。

昨天约了belbel一起break呢。。。第一次坐下来那样聊天，虽然说第一次。。但是聊的真的很多=)感觉告诉我她会像jia jia 那样，可以和我成为很好很好的朋友=)

无端端的，半夜哭醒来。。。怎么回事啊==''
回想不起昨天梦见什么。。。可是大概可以知道什么事情。。。

不会像中三那时候被人hurt...不会再发生。。。。

来吧=）发个毒誓吧~！每当喜欢一个人时，或将近喜欢一个人时。。。。我会割下一条线。。。喜欢的越深，我会割的越多。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。这次。。。。是来真的！

开心的约会=）

2009-12-18T06:42:00.000-08:00

好吧。。一开始想说的就是。。。对不起对不起对不起！！！我今天约会迟到？！
她傻乎乎的等了半个小时=(戏票还是她买的呢...ZZZzzz...

本来约好了一起看princess and the frog...可惜戏票卖完了啦。。。
她，买了avatar..第一排。。。>.<...哈哈哈。。。没关系啦=）跟你看什么都好=) 好吧~刚到不久就在sushi king 外面等。。。大厅的表演和装饰吸引了我。。。看着看着有人用手遮着我的双眼呢。。XD

午餐在台湾小食解决，因为宏很喜欢那里的汤面啦=)
吃着面时，她。。很注意的在看我的眼睛。。。。。恩！对。。在怀疑我是不是有画eye liner...

对不起哦~让你失望哦=.='..O(∩_∩)O~
聊了蛮多=)感觉好像和嘉聊天，不同的是我对你有感觉。。。。=）

戏票时间是两点半啦，吃完了就散散步吧。。。
她说了一些我已经习惯的事情。。。
譬如:"我朋友看你照片以为你是tomboy，我刚开始真的以为你是gay因为你化妆。。。你声音很像女子。。。"

想说。。呵呵。。屁啦~我对女声才会小小声的呢=)至于gay,tomboy。。。。我也没有力气解释，反正做工四天已经有两个客人以为我是女的了。。无聊=="

没错~看戏之前去玩投篮机了哦！玩到一半她说原来看错时间了！是2.15不是2.30~!
买了汽水和爆米花，没有看好戏院号码。。。走进去看见有人坐在我们的位。。
Hong:"Sir, did you sit at a wrong seat?"

ERM NOPE DUDE...THIS IS A TAMIL MOVIE~! ARE YOU SURE YOU DID NOT MAKE A MISTAKE?

啊~~她拖着我跑出去了....haha!!在隔壁呢。。哈哈！！！好fish!!!! O(>.<)o avatar 不错看啦。。=）第一排也没有想象中那么辛苦。。看完戏后她要回了。。。
分开之前。。。给了她一个抱抱。。。(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……

不能和你在一起，那就成为朋友吧。。。
不会强求，但是当你转过身想说“yes”的话，我会站在原点等着你吧。。。

太迟了吧。。。?

2009-12-15T11:10:00.000-08:00

我的感情世界。。。该说不幸吗？还是时间未到？

当我认真付出时，那关系永远不会得到好的结果。。。
当我犹豫时，却来不及说声我是真的喜欢你。。。

一切都太迟了。。。。没能在你伤心之前说:“我们在一起吧？”

到底是怎样的一回事。。。？我真心想让女生开心时，为什么带来的是眼泪。。？

能不能对我自己做下一个承诺?若是再喜欢人的话对着自己的手割出一句no love?
事关我真的太。。容易喜欢上人。。也太容易离开一个人。。。

继续随随便便地过日子吗？对感情开开玩笑？。。。

要求的不多。。。只要你真心对我。。。我也会真心对你。。。
你给的爱有几多，我给与你的爱绝对不会比较少。。。

dear...我不是故意的。。=(

2009-12-13T19:04:00.000-08:00

我知道我们这样很暧昧，也知道这样只会带来双方面的伤害。。。

可是每当我看着你传来的信息，我都是真心的在笑。。。是真的开心。。。

之前在学院我的确是有喜欢过人。。可是，他们给我的感觉就是，我是一个工具。。不开心或另外一个或两个男的不得空才会找我。。感觉不到那些真。。

可是我的的确确可以感受到你是在乎我，关心我的。。。
你问我，对我来说你是什么。。。我答不到你dear...因为我只是怕我踏进多一步。。。你会逃避我。。

昨天我才懂。。傻傻的我，原来你是想要我给你一个承诺，一个身份。。。

我想给你承诺，想给你身份。。。可是，你愿意接受么。。。
你愿意尝试吗？如果真的不要。。。还可以是朋友吗？。。。=（

等你的回复。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

每天都期待着一个人的信息。。=)

2009-12-09T05:03:00.000-08:00

不会再去想我应该喜欢谁，或我应该避开谁。。。。

FROM NOW ON, I WILL JUST FOLLOW MY FEEL...

君胜时常骂我，你傻的啊？！看信息也会笑到这样。。。

O(∩_∩)O哈哈~不是笑话啦！而是觉得开心一个人那么在乎你。。。
笑得很甜？变态？！还是白痴~？
谁在乎啦~！哈哈。。。我就是喜欢=)

我不知道谁会带给我伤害，可是至少现在的我知道谁会带给我快乐.....
君胜时常都说=='' “每次你都跟不同的人传信息。。。”
因为有的人只是没人陪才找我，有人陪就忘记我啊？不完全是我的问题吧？！

她，今天问了我: dear do you watch Disney movie？
我知道她正在说着那里一部啦~公主与青蛙嘛~(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……

宏小时候就喜欢看了啊~!
1)美女与野兽
2）睡美人
3）灰姑娘
4）白雪公主
5）狮子王
6)阿拉丁
7）mickey mouse 那些不用说啦~肯定有的嘛。。O(∩_∩)O~

傻傻的她知道我喜欢以后很像很开心呢！！=）约好了啦。。

传信息可以是甜甜的。。。当你在打情骂俏时~
传信息可以是酸酸的。。。当你在和人冷战时。。。。
传信息可以是辣辣的。。。吵架的时候吧？
传信息可以是冷冷的。。。敷衍人??O(∩_∩)O哈哈~

还有很多吧！！

至少，现在跟你。。就是甜甜的！！！

我的dear & heng dai~ v(n.n)v

2009-11-29T16:42:00.000-08:00

没有女朋友不要紧吧。。。老实说，宏现在有个dear呢。。。=)

可是要走了啦。。要转校了呢。。。=(
girl...宏才认识你不久的说。。。=(

所谓的dear 呢^^ 是宏不像朋友的朋友。。。奇怪吧?oO"?

宏喜欢你，可是不是爱你。。。
宏不是你的男友，却像男友那样想你=)
宏对你没有什么特别要求，只是想和你有着在朋友和男友之间的关系=)

你的一个信息、一个微笑、一句对白。。。。。都会让我开心=)

对我来说，这种感觉最妙，最甜了！！！

我的工作是。。。

鼓励你，
陪伴你，
在你需要关怀的时候，像多啦A梦那样伸出援手，
在你脸上没有笑容时，做点鬼脸还是什么的，逗你=P

宏还多了一个HENG DAI 呢！哈哈。。。
panda，你出场了哦~！

很帅哦！她玩dota的呢！！！哈哈。。。
在无聊但是上网龟速时，她陪我打game的说！！哈哈。。。。
最近都一直在msn聊到饱饱的 =)

咱们是同类~低能类~！hahahaha.....

最近我们都在看着海派甜心~
这个话题奇迹般的让我们聊了很很很久~

我是邹哒郞~

宏还找了粉红顽皮豹的歌做ringtone呢！！！

戏里的哒郞。。虽然呆呆的。。。可是做了很多浪漫的事的说。。=）
谢啦~宏学下来了啦=）
等待。。。。等待着第五集~！~！ XD

谁说生活上无男女朋友就很难熬的说？牛屎~hehehehehehe....不数其他的。。宏现在这个dear和heng dai~就已经让我很开心的说=)

我的blogspot。。。现在终于是我可以发泄的地方了。。。。

2009-11-28T16:33:00.000-08:00

一开始要写Blog的原因是为了
1)记录下我美好的回忆，改天可以回味。。。。
2）将心中想说的东西发泄出来。。。。

慢慢的，觉得这并不是那么的简单。。。。

我想说的，往往会害怕别人看到，有些人就是从我的部落格知道一些他们想知道的事情。。。。我讨厌这样。。。所以我的部落格通常都是很虚伪的。。。

决定把它给关了。。。现在只是属于我的。。。还有我信任的朋友。。。=（

说真来到这里。。ucsi...不曾有过一段好的感情。。。。

第一个，明明有了男朋友。。。。为什么我们会那么的好。。。为什么我们出街多过她和她男友。。。为什么当我想退出时，她不让我走。。。她说喜欢我，但是却告诉我不能和我在一起。。。说真的当时我很是辛苦。。。

第二个，也是有了男友。。。但可笑的是，一开始她告诉我想找人玩暧昧。。。我没有听错吧？是我中了吗？不知道她信息里说的有几分真，几分假。。。。知道的时，我的出现，往往是当她男友不在她身边时，或她闷时。。。我们的聊天时间通常是到每天的六点！因为男友会在她放工时载她。。。宏不要做代替品！！！！！

有人说从我说话方式，感觉到我很playboy。。。。playboy 吗。。。？

那她们是什么。。是真的喜欢我？还是消遣。。。。
我只是知道。。现在的我。。。不会真心喜欢一个女子。。。除非，她真的很好。。。但是现在的我没有可能会找到那么一个她。。。

想誊清的是，dear, sweet heart,之类的。。。对于我来说，并不是女朋友专属的。我喜欢的朋友我都会这样叫他们。。。its not even a problem if I give them a kiss....=)

想念我的前女友。因为我相信，直到现在，真心关心和爱我的人就只有她。。。
不想有女友。。。

因为找到不是真心对你的女朋友，那日子会很可悲。。。。。

hehe...post without picture sorry~

2009-11-25T08:53:00.000-08:00

Qm class in the early morning..haha..quite enjoy doing the questions...hahaha...

yea..something just pissed me off today...
the stupid librarian in UCSI...

really going to scold people already..I checked the book through internet whether it was available or not ...thank god, yes it was....I need to print a page from the book as an evidence for wap assignment!

went to counter and asked for help from the librarian...first...she gave me a number...rc448.5 bla...told me its at 2nd floor...was looking at the bookcase with RC for a long time...with 2 friends! could not find it also =(

Got a really cool answer from the librarian when I asked for help again..
Librarian: maybe someone mixed the book to other place already...try to find it out then ..

TRUST ME...YOUR EYES ARE OKAY ...NOT BLIND OR WAD..

she was asking me to find A book.....in that whole library...
wonder what the money I pay for library fees..to feed this kind of GENIUS...i think...

Gave up with the book and just be honest with the lecturer...

Pool section with nick wong..haha...played 2 hours + with him...really was a nice game with him...enjoyed~

I curse you I curse you!!!...that;s what we were shouting to each other when the only ball was left.....cursing each other not to let the last ball got in ~ LOL!!!

He was quite funny wad...keep dancing when he scored==" lan c me ..haha!!

from this I learnt that...try not to judge someone by his/ her appearance...they can be extremely different with what you have thought..

tuesday...outing with frens....

2009-11-24T07:45:00.000-08:00

original plan...acc jamen and sam sam to buy their bag....

reached college by 11..>>>>lunch>>>>cc>>>>take pendrive from panda~=) tq ya~ >>>>CC again>>>>time square>>>>movie>>>>shopping>>>>dinner>>>>balik.....haha~!

dylan with the Christmas tree~

wonder why they knew I was going to capture the picture...

woo kena cucuk ass hole~

lol...sam kena makan..=( mati lor...

solo ss...

2 extra turtle head >.< hahaha...

dai b woo =='

Dinner~

Oh ya~ had Phobia 2 with them too...wtf...laughed off my ass...^^ enjoyed the outing ..=)

waiting for the coming outing....

Sunday=)

2009-11-24T07:26:00.000-08:00

Superwoman kar? =="

weekend with assignment again...Writing assignment...

done my first draft at 6 pm something...

9pm-
went to find koey as she wanted someone to accompany her to do some stuff....
prepare the birthday present for her boy =)

ops..=( hong got lost coz fist time driving to her house....stupid =(

at the end she couldn't finished all the stuff she managed to do...

then before sending her home, went to 甜不甩~糖水店啦。。=)

drink we ordered....

hehe...tong yun =)

was having some chit chat and SS....

kena slap when taking this picture...coz I said chubby + chubby = chubby square =P

quite enjoy though....

............not a good day...

2009-11-19T08:50:00.000-08:00

Okay...what happened today...

early in the morning attended moral class...so far so good...nothing happened yet...

Then went to have breakfast with ki siao gang, anyway I did not have my breakfast again...went to CC with them after that...

here comes the problem....

Problem 1...
got into the class and was being informed that the class was canceled, after signing the attendance then can leave already...this was what the staff/lecturer had said...

but the stupid noob ass...just pissed me off...I was waiting like an hour to sign the attendance and those faking people just didn't queue up.....

I shot the staff directly.:SORRY SIR, WHY DON'T YOU JUST DISTRIBUTE MORE PAPER FOR US TO SIGN AS IT IS AN EMPTY PAPER ALSO WAD ...DON'T YOU THINK IT'S FASTER THAN SIGNING ONE BY ONE?

He answered me : I scare I will get confused if too many paper....

o0o...how old are you already...can't you manage the only attendance list? suck..

problem 2...then afternoon I had got gastric suddenly...just before writing class...pain like hell...

problem 3...my friends....jamen, liew, sam, and edwin...their bag or stuff had been stollen by people while they were having dinner at leisuremall there...

what a bad day...

second post....for my friends ^^

2009-11-16T06:23:00.000-08:00

Hong doesn't like coffee~~ haha...yucks~ taste suck...=)

early in the morning...yea...went to have breakfast with my ki siao gang...haha...but woo didn't join us..
Gs my brother..haha

Anyway I did not order anything since my stomach was feeling not well....it never felt better...
Liew liew the stupid dumb >.<

after that we attended the QM class together..I did not get full mark for the test but my friends did....=( quite upset...

Class ended and it was time for lunch ^^ I was sms-ing with SOMEONE who cares me from the early morning...

She asked me to meet her up and she got something to pass me ...

Here's the necklace ~!

yea...its a chinese word written on it...it means HAPPINESS....

she says I need it.....yea I do ..and going to make it as my phone decoration~I don't know how to but she will help>.<

You know what....Felt warm...

Was smiling in my deep heart while having my lunch.....

Dota with liew liew, jamen and kia wee after the lunch...haha...keep on shouting like crazy people...anyway it was funny and I enjoyed it ~! =)

Balik...ciao~ THANK YOU KELLY AND PANDA AGAIN....U 2 KNOW WHY LO~ HAHA...

1st post...for shooting people...

2009-11-16T05:57:00.000-08:00

Viewed someone's blog few days ago...

If I was the previous hong.. I would definitely pissed off but not now =)

I knew he was writing about me .....okay....I treated it like a joke....

First at all...he said I haven't come out work then wanted to paktor already...and should not proud of myself coz I was still feeding by my parents...so far...

He said he would work hard in the future? and buy every stuff that he wants and for the girl...and I was so stupid like saying :" I love you so much" since I got no income?

okay...GOR GOR...here comes the questions...

1st...paktor while studying was DEFINITELY WHAT YOU WERE DOING PREVIOUSLY...wasn't it?=)

2nd...Feeding by my parents?owh...obviously I am still a student of course my parents need to support me from the financial...I could only blame myself why I was born few years later than ya ^^

3rd~So you mean the word means nothing without money ya? you are such a phathetic =( well I know money is important but I just don't know that it can use for measuring the love...the length? ^^

炸人不足，笑话有余。。。。。

Well I did say love was no longer uncountable in the previous post ....so...happy go lucky =) every one has their thinking ...~

New Sem, New friends =)

2009-11-14T15:48:00.000-08:00

It was like a rule or what...

Many people will simply make a promise: we can be best friend forever...

Maybe I am one of them? just forget what I have said then ....

From primary school to secondary school, secondary school to college life...My friends were just getting lesser....We did not contact each others...

Yea, Life is like this....

Enjoy the life in primary school...No love, no complicated relationship, but just happy childhood with lots of sports =) yea hong likes sports....

Secondary school...was still okay with form 1 and 2...but form 3? felt curious with love, want to have a try, and I got hurt....I was so fat that time, no wonder girls would just run away^^

Now I am a college boy...and I have tried, or experience something new and funny....

Why "flower-hearted" this word is just using on boy?
Can girls just answer me without any hesitation that you never like few guys in a same time?

I trust you no more when you tell me you like me or you love me with some hesitation...
I don't want to be substitute, yea I am leaving from your world, or maybe I have already left....the complicated world...well, just be friend...

The possibility for Hong to like a girl with 100% is impossible now...yea, so-called "flower hearted" by people...

But how much love you put on me, the same AMOUNT of love I will let you feel...

LOVE is no longer uncountable....isn't it?

thank you....=)

2009-11-12T08:53:00.000-08:00

why Im saying thank you....?

haha...there is someone, keep trying to make me to be happy...

recently was having some good time with my gang....the ki siao gang, ks, jamen, sam, woo, kia wee, edwin, gs them.....
but then I was so grey when I was alone...trying to fool myself that I was actually happy ....

^^ my phone...has been some time never ringing...no one find me for sms, no call for chatting....the main function of my phone is just taking pictures...

But then there is SOME ONE appears so suddenly...
she sends me sms, mms, or she even calls me...Just wanna cheer me up =)

the mms she sent me ...few weeks ago I think, she made the cover by herself =)

And this one...I received it just now..when I was sleeping XD
yea...its biscuit ....but she arranges them and make a word and put on her lap..HOUNG....
haha....feel so so great that I can smile when I just wake up....

thank you so so much...My friend...^^

You are here when I need you, and of course I will be there for you if Im needed...

What I have been through recently? =) .......=(....

2009-11-10T18:30:00.000-08:00

start from last Saturday? 7-11-09

erm...woke up quite late ..9.30 am something...then helped my mom cooking for the lunch~ ^^ yeah..the only thing I know how to cook( fried rice ) =="

usually I just cook for myself but I din expect it would be that tiring when I were preparing for few people...

then 12 something I went to metro point and looked for Gs as he said he wanted to have a hair cut there...accompanied him for an hour then I went to balakong JUSCO to have a movie- The poker king ^^

after movie just find my previous colleague and had some chatting...then went home and preparing...was going back hometown XD

Sunday------8/11/09
was doing nothing but just keep on thinking how to arrange and write the stupid writing assignment....and also memorize the script like hell, the script that I have prepared for moral presentation....( JES, Gs they put a lot of effort on it...and I dowan to disappoint them ...I want do my best)

Monday-----9/11/09
Big day for moral presentation....I woke up at 4am to memorize the script again...=P
6 am shower and prepare my stuff......6.50 started off from house...
Holy Shit...traffic jam....Managed to reach there at 7.15...at the end it was 7.30 when I arrived....no time for rehearsal as all of them were slowed down by the stupid jam...

I tried my best on the presentation...guess it was still acceptable, but somehow...our presentation was not that good.....=="

at nite ..dated koey to watch a movie....yeah...poker king again!! both of us were watching for the second time already! =) stupid stupid her XD keep asking the same questions in the movie to me.... Forgot to take a picture with her for uploading...=( next time then~ =)

after movie went home and sleep....nite nite =)

==" nothing to post but kena marah ed =="

2009-11-05T08:38:00.000-08:00

BLACK OUT AGAIN! It always happens on THURSDAY!!!!

UCSI, Tiu Nia Bu~!!!!!

purposely wait for 3.30 writing class....blackout again ==" then suddenly got electricity again...suddenly blackout again...countless time it happened.

I love ucsi~(^o^)o0o

huiyo==" really dono what to update ler...
nothing special happened to me also ==......

oh ya! that day went to mid valley with edwinson and ah pek again....muahaha...
Guess what...porridge again....I had two sets of it !!!

holy shit! its so so delicious....don't ask me what to eat when we go Mid Valley okay?
haha...

capture some pictures to update my friend how I look like now ....
neh...got show front part already HYPER TENG.....

Houng....you said you wanted to keep fit....
you said you wanted to have a body without fat oil for shopping....

keep eating and you will be like this =='BWAHAHAHAHAHA....F3(maple emotion.)

HEWMEITENG~! NAH...MY HAIR x)

2009-10-29T07:35:00.000-07:00

erm...never think of upload my stupid hair ...but then kena hyper shoots....

can't stand for my long long hair anymore...very difficult and also lazy to take care of it..

every time if the class starts at 8...wonder how early I need to wake up to set my hair =="

yea....its kinda extreme...last time very long, now very short XD

show you guys lar.....don't afraid of me ! im not bad guy!
by the way ...xiu mui mui, want to see gam yu or not ......=P

Okay....my way to pass my time recently

2009-10-28T09:59:00.000-07:00

wake up -> breakfast -> class-> home-> shower->nap-> find something to eat -> online-> sleep->

How long I did not go out with my gang or friends already?
hehe...quite long time ed...

reason for never outing lately?
first, save money due to my house is facing financial problem..
second, faking lazy ...don't have such mood to hang around or movie...its always the same places, same things to do ..where to go ? ts? Mv? Sg wang? what to do ? hang around? bowling? movie?

the longer I stay outside the more money I will spend...
spend on some stuffs just to kill my time but will never bring me any hapiness.....

sorry to all my dear friends...its not like I don't want to update..but its really nothing has happened to me these days....X)

perhaps I would post something that what I was thinking ...my feeling...they would be kinda grey..... =(

Never put any hope or expectation, then you will feel much happier when it really happens....

Update?...

2009-10-21T08:23:00.001-07:00

Friends asked me to update my blog...
But what can I update...

I don't like outing anymore...
I don't like hyper anymore...
I don't like to be the extra one anymore...

So....I choose to be.....alone....

will abandon my blog for awhile....

All the best.....

No more Mr emo but Mr whatever....hahahaha..

2009-10-17T20:02:00.000-07:00

Houng...what to eat later? cincai lar...
Houng...where to go later? cincai lar...
Houng...want pool or not? cincai lar...
Houng...outing or not......? cincai lar...

Recently You will often hear..cincai from my mouth if you are always with me ...

What to do ...
I have learnt this long time ago...The lesser hope or expectation you put on a thing...the lesser hurt or disappoint you will have...
But I just don't know it would be so hurt...

I was spending my life like a dead people with heart beat these days...
No one gave me hope or light ....No one could do that...

I will put on my shield any time, any where....I trust no one with 100%....unless my family...

some of my friends ask me ...hey houng...why I never see any outing post in your blog anymore...
My answer was...I used to like outing because it would bring me some fun...but nowadays...its a faking boring thing for me ....

this rule is always fixed in my mind...
It doesn't matter where to go but who to go with...

Don't wish to fall in love anymore....its....suck...
My love stories have never been a good ending...
My fate....

haha...another day with MONKEY FAMILY!!!

2009-10-14T10:10:00.000-07:00

omg omg ...haha....we have been sticking together for many days already....haha...recently they were very popular in my blog...haha...

today I just attended the tutorial class for quantitative methods...haha...
the lecturer gave us a STIMULATION TEST...probably let us to prepare or have the idea what's the coming test will be like...

ohom~ waited Jes after I finished the test...
We were having a discussion about moral assignment at library....

We Ss no matter where we were....even in library!! haha...SS= siok sendiri...taught by JES~

Edwin was being interviewed by his friend for the english foundation assignment...child abuse...haha..? Jes couldn't stand for it ...she was keep laughing when Edwin started speaking...

after that they decided to SING K at NEWAY! yea...that's cool.....haha...
Met another two new friends.....Don and Ashley...the sweet couple I guess? haha

turtle edwin's driving~ haha...

its lunch hour with buffet....we both simply take whatever food after we ordered our set....
haha...never plan or think what to take....what's putting on it then we will just take~!

taking photo in the K box~

Fire ball awhile with Edwin after Edwin sent us back to college....

balik home after that...^^

had a great day with you guys again! but this time ah pek was not joining...not that complete...haha...

Tuesday...happy day with my monkey family...

2009-10-13T10:52:00.000-07:00

Morning we attended moral class together...stupid edwin~ he promised us to make each of us a breakfast but at the end he did not wake up on time and even late for class~~

shuen lar~ haiz....

after class I went to pick Eunice and Miss ding to college....after that I did not join them for lunch but went to find Jes them at block A....having some discussion for the moral assignment..

Jes + edwin with glasses~

Without glasses =="
Houng~
Edwinson....usually call him edwin...too long ed >.<
GS (AH pek~)
both of them were gifted by Jes~ ^^
The monkey family!!!!! muack~
At first we planned to go Leisure mall because Edwin wish to get some stuff from there...But somehow...we changed the location to Mid valley...haha...

yea...just going with this two ma lat lou....Edwin was the driver~

stupid us ....just a elevator we could take so many pictures....hahahaha!!!!
we stopped because suddenly so many people behind us....felt shy haha....

the first thing to do was ....filled up our empty stomach...with this delicious porridge~ its simple but its nice~!!!! seriously....

walked around after eating....went to the pet wonderland too....haha...quite enjoy the environment with so many animals....most of them were cute!!!!

ohom~ food again...edwin suggested to have this...haha....its quite nice...

visited Garden after finished gai gai at Mid valley...walking around lagi~...

one of the shop in Garden~!

Saw this...haha...cute clock...bomb~!!!

had some rest before going back Uni...haha....enjoy the day with you guys....stupid monkey family!!....

No true love....No such thing...

2009-10-13T10:11:00.000-07:00

The only girl I trusted she had put the 100% love to me ....has left me too...
Who else I can trust...Who else can make me believe the existence of true love...

I don't want to just have a complicating relationship but instead I need to have some one with me ...I am greedy...and selfish...but which human being is not selfish...

they make decisions or choices to bring more profit or benefit to themselves....

Love ...I got another idea for it now...
Love is just like a market...

We...as a boy or girl...are just the product in the market...
We need to follow the flow in the market or else we will be rejected very quickly...

Which means...a girl/ boy will never love you for forever if you don't do something to raise your own value....they will change the target once they meet the better one...

Is anyone disagree with what I am talking about here....

respect you since you like to be single...
But then I won't be yours....

there are only two answers....yes or no.....its not like the color....it has grey between black and white....
No longer have idea with what position for me to stay beside you...would be cool if the answer is just simple as a...FRIEND.....

Tell me when you change your mind...but the time is limited...I don't know how long I can last the feeling with you....I don't like the present feeling...

Saturday ...exam day but fun...

2009-10-11T03:22:00.000-07:00

Saturday...should be a boring day because I could not play basketball with my friends and purposely went to college just for a test.....

But then you guys filled up my Saturday nicely...

Morning I met Jes at the place they wait for shuttle bus...then we walked to exam hall together...was waiting for ah pek (Gs) and Edwinson...

We were both in....TEMBAK mood....no one study hard for moral...
after test we planned a lot...but at the end Jes, me and edwinson decided to go for 1st floor...the piano room and have some fun...haha...

again....they played the piano and we sing together ^^ I was the only one who didn't know how to play piano there T^T
hehe..actually just waiting for ah pek lar......he was having test for algebra ......
I feel that...girls are extra attractive when they are doing something seriously....

after test they planned to go to the restaurent nearby Jes's house...they said its famous and nice...^^ here come the fatty HOUNG!...

after that due to there was a garbage truck besides my car~! yuck! we both not dare to go closer....so pergi play ground beside us and have some stupid SS photo..haha....

cant see! cant speak!!cant hear!!!..

then next destination was jes's house....they wanted to study for economics...I was not taking it...so I was just playing ps two there!! haha...

after that fireball awhile with Gs...then back home ed...

at night....visited my friend's house for the open house party...and also his birthday..

My bro aj...have known him for many years...but its funny....we seldom meet...^^

had some drink even though I need to drive afterward....I was quite emo...hehehe...

some time I can drink alot....but some time...1 can of beer can make me blur already...depends on my willingness....I wished to drunk yesterday...

10/09/09...a special day for me ...I will always remember today....

2009-10-09T05:42:00.000-07:00

Its okay for me as long as we are happy...

I like your smell
I like your smile
I like your everything..

I won't forget it...

Mr lonely...again..

should happy or not..

2009-10-06T08:41:00.001-07:00

yea...after moral class went to pick up miss ding and miss ng...

accompany them to have their breakfast...half way Gs came and we left earlier...
going to office to get the signature from the head of department about the form for retaking account....

I was kinda surprised when some one shouted my name when I was pass by Block A 1st floor....It was CHARITY...haha...she seems so happy there...erm...but then a guy who's kinda friendly invited Gs and me to join for a game....its wii...haha...

Its like a tournament...winner stay...after wrote down our name...I went to office to fix up my stuff first...

alien CHARITY!

stupid CHARITY was playing...haha...she lost...but anyway...she seemed like quite enjoy with it ...haha

Gs~ my opponent in semi- final...=)

yea...I won the game...kinda happy.,...but then ..

when I reached home....I did not speak any word about it...

I can guess what kind of respond they will give me....don't waste your time on those nonsense things....study ...

9 pm something went to desmund's house to borrow a tie from him...red in color...
and bought a white shirt at billion....need it for the basic training tomorrow..

its not really nice anyway...Mr whatever just bought it ...

haha...tell you all a secret...I don't know how to put on a tie anyway~! asked my sister to teach me that....

before~

after

Im confused....=(

2009-10-05T07:22:00.000-07:00

You told me that you wish to be the first one who knows my everything...

Just two type of people I will share my everything...
1)My best friend....pure best friend...
-I will tell them when Im emo or sad because I know I will not like or love them...

2)My girl friend.....who accepted me as her boy...
-for sure its so normal for a boy to share everything with his girl...

Which one do you prefer......A best friend? or to be my girl?...

I always believe this world has got only two colors...black and white...
Its basically means legal and illegal...most of the time I like grey color...because rules are set by human being...we make it , we break it ...and different situation with different decision making...

But I don't really like Grey color in love...because its between them,its confusing...
Most of the people could not differentiate either it is black or white...
For me being blur with everything should be just fine...but at least not for love...I want to make it clear...love or hate..its different....

Recently I just feel like very lazy to put any effort on doing anything...I don't know what's the reason...maybe you are right...I don't wish Mina to leave M'sia...

Maybe there is something else in my mind...Im not being unfair to you...I treat every one like this recently...So please don misunderstanding me ...

I guess we are impossible to be a pair...because you cant clap with only one hand...I think I am the only hand...

But...do you wish to just be my friend ...???hahaha....

迟来的团圆饭。。妹妹的生日~

2009-10-05T04:46:00.001-07:00

呵呵。。中秋节本来是应该星期六的吧？恩。。。两位舅舅还在新加坡还没回到。。。所以我们就等到星期日顺便庆祝妹妹的生日了啦~~

星期日。。。依旧如往常那样过了早上和中午。。。

傍晚五点左右。。。跟小舅到了橡胶园里帮忙填满tangki里面的水。。好方便平时浇水啊。。。

回到外婆家大概是6点多吧。。。哈哈。。外婆家很多冲凉房啦~不用争。。。七点左右到了爸爸预订的餐馆吃东西。。。很久没有这么团聚了呢~。。。

餐前。。

餐后。。

不要怀疑。。。苍蝇先生也来抽热闹。。。哇~！~！老板！！！！。。。o0o

回到家后。。。切蛋糕了啦~。。。妹妹还蛮开心的呢！！他说没有试过有两层的蛋糕呢~呵呵。。。

恩。。。不是那么好吃拉~哈哈。。。本身不喜欢吃蛋糕。。。secret recipe另谈~

本来想说。。。看到舅舅房间有着一辆模型遥控车。。。我的dream car ^^mini cooper..可爱啊。。呵呵。。。

原本只是想借来玩玩。。。表哥说。。。喜欢就拿去玩啊~

我就很像小孩子那样笑着收下了^^

爸爸说明天早上才赶回去。。呵呵。。。随便啦。。不是我驾车。。。

You are my sweetest drug...Cant forget about you...

2009-10-03T13:17:00.000-07:00

We know each other because of british council...
We are together because of british council...
We love each other because of british council too....

It was a place that's fulled with sweet memory for me...

I met my god father Ali there...

I knew my classmates that's came from different countries...

I knew my teacher Emma there....

It wasn't like a school but instead it was just like my second family...its warm...its so so great...

From the first day you stepped in the classroom and introduced yourself..I was attracted by your smile and your eyes...was looking for a chance to get know you.....

From sitting few tables from me...then table next to me...then at the end ...sit beside me =)

haha....we were answering questions together..we were having break time together, we were going and leaving british council together...we were always be together ^^

Emma said we were just like a pair of lovely bird...=D
I loved it and agreed with it ....

but then both of us need to further our studies...you decided to study at johor bahru...while I need to stay at KL...We seperate peacefully ....

No one will believe that how sweet we were until no argument between us?

Im right here waiting for your University holiday...and the time you come KL again...you say it will be around November right? ^^...I cant wait for it ...
I will bring you go everywhere...it doesnt matter where to go...as long as you are with me ...

If I can get a part time job and save up some money...
Can we go Genting as we planned last time but did not make it?

Miss you a lot...

less outing from now on....just to spend more time with you when the chance comes..

sorry girl...

2009-10-01T09:43:00.000-07:00

sorry....I was being lost control of myself...
sorry to treat you like that last wednesday...
I just don't know how to control myself....

yeap...kinda angry that you forgot what you have promised me ....
but its just like got something else in my mind...I don't really know.....

but at the end...you were so kind and forgave me...and also bought me the chines herbal soup coz you knew that I was sick..insomnia..and I like soup....

I felt so guilty and sorry when I heard you said:"houng where you....I dabao something for you le lar..." =(

bitten by you today...its really hurt...but if that could make you feel better then just go on...sorry again...girl...will never do that to you anymore....

this time is spagheti...=)

2009-09-29T03:49:00.000-07:00

o(^v^)o

tuesday...moral class at 8 am ...after class picked miss ding...
headed to eunice's house coz yesterday she said she wanna make us some spagheti...

waiting for gal to prepare us the spagheti.....nothing to do with miss ding....take picture...

eunice joined, she was waiting for the water to boil up....=)

gao dim le lar....as you can see..the bigger one is for me ...miss ding took the smaller plate oO?

kinda nice lar eunice ^^ thank you for the breakfast....im lovint it ^^

two last minute student wanted to study for the mid term test after finished the breakfast...

Dowan choi them...houng want oi oi ....yesterday I did not sleep at all...tough huh? ...
but then slept for awhile woke up by eunice...=.="

HOUNG! GO COLLEGE LE LAR!! sweat...

sent them to college then I wait Gs and accompany him to go back KAJANG coz he wanted to have a hair cut...

went home after that..tired...ZZzzzz....

hey! almost forget to post this!! jes jes gifted us, edwinson, Gs and me one of this but in different colour ^^...thank you ya ^^ jes hehe...

gal...tried your porridge, now spagheti...what's coming next? =)

yuck....I am seriously faking stupid and lapsap...

2009-09-28T07:32:00.001-07:00

I don't know is it I got no talent at all for maths? or specially just idiot for account or number....?since secondary school I have never got any good result for account already ....its just like a shit thing for me ....

yea yea...failed the account and need to retake the course again...

recently I look like so hyper active but actually I guess I was forcing myself to be like that...
I got no idea why I was doing this....
I am really tired with it now...wanna be what I think I should be...lazy to pretend...

(yea yea...probably some people might think that I am typing these to gain people sympathy and make friend again...)

I did know what you typed in your msn title ...but so sorry to tell you that I have deleted you from my list since the day I found you were a sucker, so I did not see it....WHO'S THE PUSSY NOW?talk to me face to face...don't talk these proudly and loudly behind of me...you fucking pussy....yea yea, I am asking for an argument now! But guess you not dare to do that...MY LITTLE PUSSY.....

My blog is a place for me to shout out....once again I remind you guys...if you guys don't like it ...just f off...

Syiok night...but insomnia again....

2009-09-26T01:56:00.001-07:00

uhum~ friday again....only got one class to attend yesterday....

Got no idea but every time when friday I will feel..kind of excited~ haha..
reason one? maybe can yamcha with my brothers?
reason two?tomorrow can play basketball with them again?

after class it was about 4 pm and I drove back to home...haha...
No doubt I took a nap again after shower..its just like a must for me =.=" >>>>>(=@=)V

woke up around 8 something and have some chit chat with friend at msn ...then went out yamcha with friend ....yea~ I stayed overnight at my friend's DESMUND house...lazy to drive back home again after drink...some more planned to have alcohol drinks...

Since YAN got something to do at home, reached his house and have some chit chat there first...
after his LOU PO ZAi finished preparing we went out to a food court nearby his house ....

DRINK DRINK DRINK~

1

1+1=2 =)

balik desmund's rumah around 1....

wonder how much did DESMUND spend to buy these comic!! wth....rm 5 per book...count it out yourself!!!!

holyshit....not again...I thought having some alcohol could help me sleep better...insomnia again....stupid KOEY....you said you wanna tam me oi oi but you DID NOT! hate you....=(
chat chat chat chat chat.....until 3 am ar!!!

the second day only 7 am only...bangun ed ToT...4 hours I have slept...
insomnia continuously for 4 days ed!....what I was thinking in my mind....gosh...

8 am arrived basketball court and started playing basketball....
at first not really happy...those son of turtle don't want to let us join...since last time lost gao gao to us...so damn selfish o0o...........

8 of us also arrived already...NO MERCY! just chiong out and shoot ball....want play then stay...don't want then go out...XD

was playing non stop...7 or8 matches already? ^^

after that had our lunch at the restaurent we usually went to~ chat and laugh loudly ^^ our second home ^^...

Guess nothing special will be happening later...so I just start writing my blog ^^hahaha

Lonely MAN SHUI~

什么感觉啊。。。灰灰的。。。

2009-09-24T08:42:00.000-07:00

最近开始用中文了呢。。。
比较容易形容我的心情吧。。。

星期四。。。
跟往常一样。。。载了eunice以后，碰见 jamen 跟gs
一起到RICHIE 吃午餐。。
我没有吃啦。。。吃了又呕，免得浪费钱。。。XD

过后。。。没地方去了啦~又是fire ball...=="

上完课以后。。。载了miss ding 回家。。路途中谈了蛮多东西。。。

白痴对话。。。
jia:这里停就可以了啦。。。
houng:我在中间。。signal要打左边还是右边？
jia;.....................................

最近灰灰的原因。。连我自己也不知道是怎么回事。。

如果跟一个女生一起，是为了离开寂寞。。。值得吗？
有的话，这个机会值得给吗？

会对女生不公平吧？。。。

跟她，应该是不可能。。没有放任何期望。。。
没有勉强，没有执著，没有强逼。。。。

哈哈，她只不过像姐姐那样疼我罢了吧。。。对吗？

最近真的没有不开心。。。只是，也没有什么开心。。
感觉。。就是，做什么都很。。不在乎。。。
宏，再不改变自己。。。你就跟垃圾没有什么两样了啦。。。

呵呵呵呵呵呵呵。。。。。。。。

Wednesday that was grey in colour....

2009-09-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

Since yesterday night I was already can't slept well...
Didn't know what I was actually thinking....
Probably something negative....

morning woke up at 7.30am even though yesterday night slept around 2~3 am...
woke up, gaming, checking blog for awhile then 10. am started preparing to go out....

yea...Got a date with man fei them...My classmate when I was still studying at Ktar...sing k at sg wang green box...

went to pick Gs then Michael at batu 9 bus stop....
arrived there on time...

our pictures...

My pasta...tasteless...but maybe because I was hungry...finished them....
Realize that I kinda like salad...^^

man fei...=="

Mic with Gs...^^

Jun siong...lol...

SS alone in the toilet...=D

We are from shaolin!!! LMAO~!
random pictures ^^

after that received a message from Eunice and she said that class has been canceled...
I left greenbox earlier since not really got the mood to continue...and few days didn't see gal already...

It was 2.30pm when I reached UCSI there...met gal and jiawen up and sat down for awhile...
after they finished their drinks headed to leisure mall coz Eunice suddenly felt hungry and wanna get some food from kenny roger roaster...

view captured from inside the kenny roger roaster to outside ...

jia says her shirt kinda match with the sofa....

heee...by gal...forced by jia....lolx...

after sent them home ...that's what I have been doing for today...

kinda grey...means between hyper and emo...=)

外婆家。。。

2009-09-22T09:08:00.000-07:00

马来人开斋节嘛。。。
我们全家人回到外婆家陪外婆啦。。。
因此不能陪一个特别的人，在她特别的日子，庆生。。。对不起啊。。。

外婆家。。。不再像以前那么热闹。。。亲人一个一个离开，舅舅们都在新加坡，表哥表姐也都出外做工。。。

可以想象这么大间的屋子平时只有两个人住吗。？小舅跟外婆。。。

这里曾经是小时候傍晚大家都会聚在一起打羽毛球的地方。。。

这里曾经是我跟表哥表弟在雨中嬉戏的地方。。。

这里曾经是我们追来追去的地方。。。

房子很大，但是很静。。。。

比较怀念小时候舅舅还没有买下这里时住的kampung板屋。。
小小的空间，热闹的气氛。。。

二姨，外公，表姐。。。。一个接一个慢慢离开了我们。。。新年的气氛也一年比一年冷清。。。

想说的是，珍惜所有在身边的人。。

趁还可以保护，爱护，关怀时。。好好珍惜他们。。。

Full day dating with EUNICE!!! happy day ^^

2009-09-19T09:22:00.000-07:00

morning played basketball as usual with friends^^
but I left earlier due to need to go home and prepare for the dating =D

finished up all my stuff around 12.30 and reached eunice's house at 1.0++ omg...late ed...>.
Eunice wore skirt that she not usually wearing...phew wit....leng lui ^^
1st station,
went to sg wang coz EUNICE said she wanna crazy shopping there!!!

before that went to a restaurant we both have never tried....don't remember the name but got take a picture with their menu XD

The main reason why we try this...coz she says she likes the cartoon...its cute >.<"? Nothing to do while waiting for the food...take picture lu~

emo houng ^^"?

kinda delicious.....could see from her face...=D

our food!!!

Ramen Ramen~ and red bean soup! cold>.<
okay....filled up our stomach!its time to shopping!anyway just for EUNICE >.
gal was waiting for the staff to take the size of the shoe she wanted ~

after that visited kinda many shops but I didn't take any photo....=="

lets see what she has bought for today! omg.....gal...swt....
sun glasses that she bought...=.=" macam lalat?

2nd station,
BALAKONG JUSCO~!

we told miss ding will go visit her! and we did ^^ and planned to watch a movie there too....coz gal just now was too enjoy her shopping...untill we forgot that we haven watch any movie^^"

bought ticket for WHERE GOT GHOST....funny movie!! and scared us countless time too ...=="

keke...spotted miss ding!! chit chat with her untill its time to movie~after movie it's around 8.20+pm? before leaving jusco went to say goodbye to miss ding again ^^

miss ding with cute uniform ^^

3rd station,
KAJANG ~

I promised gal long time ago to bring her to try kajang satay....but now only I bring her to have a try....sorry =(

totally ordered 30 satay! and some ketupat and timun XD

cant really finished it ...lolx

hu!~!~! stomach was totally fulled!!!sat in the car and was having some chit chat...

around 11pm then sent EUNICE balik rumah ^^

what a happy day...^^as miss ding said just now....now really feel great...non of us was emo, all hyperactive =D

kinda happy day...no one was emo~!

2009-09-17T05:29:00.000-07:00

Cut hair jor lar~ but seems like no different they say ^^""

Early in the morning, as usual attended moral class with Gs and Jes...
after finished class then went to CC and play left four dead with edwinson and Gs~ haha...waiting for the left four dead two!!!!omg....

said bye to edwinson and went picked eunice and jiawen with Gs ^^

we had our brunch at Pizza Hut!! haha....here's come the show!!!

MISS DING TEH TARIK PIZZA HURT..hold so high but at then end...piak~
ta da~~~clap your hand please~ XD

random pictures

share this with eunice...kinda nice ^^

shy Gs and jia jia ^^Why she looked so sad since I was the one who being forced? oO"?

okay lar...they went to class and Gs and I nothing to do ...headed to library around twelve thirty and stayed until 1 thirty something? kekeke..went to pool with Gs then...

after finished pool then headed to audi to attend the writing class..

thanks to UCSI, once again....dono what the H was happened again....so dark inside there...

shuen lar....not first time ed....

met miss ding at mph while eunice got some stuff to do.
giam bui giam bui....but awhile oni...die jor..haha...

we played two on two game!omg...miss ding with I and another pair of couple...
miss ding, the way you defend...laughed off my ass!!!!!hahaha...

okay lar...balik liao lar ^^on the way sending miss ding back home, she sings all the way ^^she says my radio got problem so she could replace as my radio XD ....hyperactive miss ding today but damn funny and cute ! ^^

was raining heavily when sending eunice go home....and traffic jam as well...kinda enjoy to chat like that in the car ^^ feel great.....
(decided that Pink color words are for you gal ^^)

really was a great day for me even though there was no any special event...hope to pass my college life like this every day!!!

Hey Mr Gan, this post is PURPOSELY FOR YOU! sorry, no MR for you...not gonna treat u like a human being!

2009-09-16T06:56:00.000-07:00

1st, I have a question to ask you....how old are you?
answer for you: twenty three....

I bet you will never forget how old are you...
So do you mind a boy who's younger 4 years than you to remind you DON'T DO SUCH SILLY FUCKING THINGS?

I remembered you said that you would chase her back from begin ? THAT'S BULL SHIT...
Will a guy forces the girl he admires "not to stay close with other boys?"WHAT IS THE MEANING FOR CHASE BACK THEN?You have no right to control her life now ...

The ways you ask for a date, it is not any kind of inviting, but its more like forcing.
What time will you be finished your class ?
what are you doing now ?
who is with you now ?
what time will you be reaching home?
bla bla bla....

Since you care her so much, why didn't you appreciate her when you were still playing the role as her boy?
What I have seen before , with my eyes, there was just an idea in my mind...
is this for real? a guy who asks his gf to accompany him, but he is just playing game at cc....or having drinks with friends but never bother his girl?
or letting his girl's stomach empty but he's going to have some drinks with friends?

yea...I often with her now, and miss ding as well...we are both best friend...
so wtf reason you care or angry for?

wanna know how was this morning? yea...we were both smiling, laughing, chit chatting at old town until she met you, her face was totally changed into moody....

Would you please use your mind? do you know how difficult for me and miss ding to cheer her up? and with your appear, everything screwed up! thank you so much for that~!

I do know something you talked to her...You gonna beat me right? Or you gonna break my car's mirror? Do you feel proud to threaten a girl like that? Do you?Why don't you speak to me then?

When you first chat with me through msn and talk so many things...I thought you were a mature thinking guy...but now...I take it back...you are not!!!

What she gonna do , what she wanna do...there is definitely nothing to do with you and don't even need to get a permission from you....

Even a blind people would know that...never do that to a girl if you think you are a man....

Stop talking shit to me like "I LIKE HER?I LOVE HER SO MUCH? I CANT FORGET HER ?"

If you did, you will never make her suffering....Use your mind which is given by god...

Don't be so fucking childish....and don't pretend like you are so mature....NAH!! oOo!!!!

hey...jia and eunice...funny ler you all XD

2009-09-14T06:47:00.000-07:00

Last time I often emo you all shoot me wor....
Today I keep playing around then you all say I hyperactive wor~!haha...
what you all want o~ gaduh ar?

hehe...Don't worry...ask I said I will try to change myself...
not Robbie william's to be a better man,...but instead to be a better BOY ~!hong zai wad~ haha...

Early morning went to pick Eunice then met jia at college lar....jia wish to have breakfast from oldtown but then...unluckily, it was not opening...XD changed to the restaurant which was located at the opposite side...don't know what name already....XD

While eating saw WENGCHUN AND THE CARTOON GIRL MEITENG...recently always spam message at her blogspot....haha...coz...nothing to do I guess~...She was shaking her hand hardly to say hi..~ I think not to me only (ToT)...coz she knew jia and eunice also...haha...

study gao gao at library after having breakfast with them...due to two thirty got a test...supp paper for business...=(

but then luckily those essays I have studied both came out~!

met eunice after test...she met with Mr G nearby block C and chat all the way while walking to main gate...
I "siam away" and nothing I can do,but luckily met a friend of mine....YIK AND NATE~ right?always just say Hi to them every time but never introduce each other...for more than 1 sem ed...XD!!!!!(take their picture when I got the chance =D)

sent eunice back to home and having some chit chat in car...then bye bye lu~ that's all for today...nite nid to study gao gao for account lagi..wtf..ToT

Sorry to all my friends....

2009-09-13T13:25:00.000-07:00

Sorry to all my friends....
Sorry for being so emo recently...
Sorry for everything I did recently...

Will try to cheer up....
Will try not to let you guys worry about me anymore...
Will try to bring back the positive houng and laugh off your ass...
Will try my best to appreciate the everything I have got now...

Some times things just happen and I don't even think that I can control my own temper..
happy and Emo is just a line between each of them for me ...

A lot of them suggest me to enjoy my life in college and University while I still can...
You might not have the leisure time to enjoy with your friend that often after you finish your university...You need to work...

So, why don't I have my best moment for now? why I rather wasting my time on being emo..haha...Am I correct...??

wuhu~~~ houng is revive!!!!!!!!

Should I make my account to be private...

2009-09-12T08:52:00.001-07:00

I don't know I can actually do this ....until I ask miss ding...
because I thought once it started you need to decide either publish it or make it to private..

My original purpose for start writing blog was to express my own feeling anytime as I wish to...
Sorry...My blog is not a place for you or you to keep an eye on me........

I need a private space ....
Still considering about it now....

There were a lot of things I was thinking about recently...But I never post out all of them...I guess I knew what would be happen if I type them out....

Nope...no more suffering because I think it's not worth to suffer for something that I don't really know what the fuck is happening...

haha...haha...Am I laughing....?=)

Did you remember last time you were crying and were writing something on a peace of paper in my car..?And I asked you to keep that message?

I did it because I trusted you...you said you were not a good girl...never bring happiness but instead making everyone around you suffering, unhappy?

I would never regret I did that if you were really willing to be a good girl...

Everything I did to you...its for real...no cheating .....
But then ..I don't know when you need me or when you don't....maybe your situation is such a mess now and I could not even find a place to stand...

I am going prove that she and me really can be bf for forever...not a must to be couple....

I believe you can do it better....I trust you...=)

2009-09-11T12:04:00.000-07:00

I was considering to give up about you....
But then, no one is perfect....
chance will be always given if you wish to do it better....

It will be tough but no worry I will be your side...
maybe you are just...lost? this is what I am thinking in my mind...

I always trust my 6th sense more than anything...that's why I can be that emo....
my 6th sense tells me that I will be hurt again if I keep staying in this position...
but then...my 6th sense also tells me that it would be great too if you decided to do it better...

Honestly what I have said to you in msn just now...Its all from my heart, never tell lies during the conversation....

I know you just want to make me or people around you to feel happy...maybe you have chosen a wrong way to express your feeling? a way that could make people misunderstanding?

yea...some times I do feel that I hate you...but think it wisely...you tried so hard to make me happy or just to see my smile....

despite you always make me feel sad or uncomfortable, but I think you don't want it to happen...

My 6th sense tells me again...I need to be your backup ..to support you, to accompany you...

We start from zero....from nothing...from normal friend...until you think properly what decision you are going to make...take your time...don't be rush....

let god decides what will happen next....

JUST LET IT BE....

Friday morning....preparing for supp paper...

2009-09-10T17:41:00.000-07:00

Supp paper is coming...

business for monday and accounting for wednesday....
No outing until next wednesday.....

COMPLICATED RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN YOU AND ME ...

We are close enough but we are not easy as just being friend...
I don't know what should I do ...I want to be the special one but I guess I can't...
its kinda suffering most of the times...just like walking in the path without ending....
what am I for you...a friend? or ? Mind to give me an identity?

Will try to figure out this, how to settle this relationship...not going to avoid from you but instead I will face you, with unknown relationship...

I said I will continue our friendship unless you don't want to ...this promise is on for forever....

I don't want to be mr emo again...but my 6th sense tells me Im going to behave like that again..

thank you to miss ding again...
the same way people threaten me but your one is specially useful...

you said: you try to cut your hand then we are not friend anymore....never talk to you!

yea I care you....my best friend....

the same thing goes to you...don't try to hurt yourself....

(green color in my blog is always for you....stand for wu guai...my best friend....)

Thursday...cool...

2009-09-10T07:42:00.000-07:00

attended moral class at 8 am....lol...

kinda enjoy the class you know...lecturer was cute, talk active, always expecting what will I have for the coming lesson ^^

finished the class kinda early..knew a fren called yen during the moral class, introduced by Jes..^^ she looks sweet ^^ but talk less ....=( hope can be a good friend with her =D

after class nothing to do again..met up my friend lee and were going to office to get the tips for business supp paper...omg....next monday for business and next wednesday for accounting! shit...wonder if I could finish preparing ....

before that~! something special that I have never tried before happened...^^

jes playing piano and I was singing..that was cool ^^ haha....I found a new things to do during break in the future >.< haha....

random pictures...
went to pick eunice and jia wen as usual but this time lee was going with me ...due to he got nothing to do but need to wait until 4 oclock to pay the supp paper fees for writing == he said ucsi management was suck..=="

after picked them up...had lunch together...then jia and eunice were going to class and Lee and I were going pool and cc while waiting for them... 2pm they looked for us and sent them to fix their ptptn stuff...

I went back earlier to attend my class...eunice will be send by jia's fren.... this was what I have seen when I reached college....wtf...electricity out of support....

purposely wait for so many hours to attend the class...end up with nothing...that's great... THIS IS SO CALLED UCSI!!!!!

after that sent eunice back to her house ....

go home ......

vomit again ....Im getting slimmer ...haha(guess jia jia will jealous...XD)
thank you to always be my side when I need you...my best friend....JIA....

Ops...sorry I forgot to post this...Tuesday...

2009-09-09T01:35:00.000-07:00

Got class in the early morning...8.00 am for moral class..Kinda enjoy the class....the lecturer was cool....haha...

class finished kinda early due to no notes to refer yet...Gs and I lepak around because both of us not willing to go home that early....had a breakfast at oldtown....

then..haha...pool for awhile...really awhile only...30 minutes+? We both can control ourselves , not bad ..maybe we were bored with pool but really just to kill the time...waiting for ah lee...planned for watching Final Destination but can't manage it at the end...

we left connaught and went to Balakong Jusco for movie..
not final destination but instead...we chose The unbelieveable due to time problem...
lee met us up before the movie started...but then he was late =="

damn scary ...sorry....this time not miss ding...it's me ....suk like wu guai!!!!with my bag..covering my eye most of the time...=.="

finished movie then I went back connaught to meet them up...eunice and miss ding...
went to the dessert shop we went to yesterday...exactly the same shop, same place...but this time with miss ding too ^^

seems like she loves their mihun so much....order for second times already...^^"

red bean red bean red bean....all read bean....

my drinks...can taste some champaign from it ? =.="?

Miss ding mum mum-ing =)

after that sent them home and balik kampung too...

Mr Houng...test for supp paper is coming around right?...ToT~

Wednesday...what kind of feeling is this?...

2009-09-08T19:19:00.000-07:00

woke up at 10 something..due to yesterday chat kinda late with Eunice...anyway I think will not stop chatting if she didn't want to sleep..I like chatting...and I enjoy chatting....

10 am...mami shoots me...because she is making food for lunch already...but I just wake up to have my breakfast?...chat a lot...included the situation in house...yea...worry about money...

later my dad is gonna have a meeting with other stockholders...and waiting for his news no matter good or bad?I was thinking about this from few weeks ago...maybe,just maybe if my dad is no longer working ....I might stop studying....

But then stop studying...how much salary I can earn without the certificate? FAN...

Really got no idea how to manage my money...and I don't know how to reject and I always suggest to go out for having fun...spending...spending...and spending the money...

bothered by a lot of things...my mind could not run so many things simultaneously...love?studies?money?future?

the only hope for me is...get the ptptn loan successfully... then get the scholarship...wth..Mr houng, are you dreaming...?

gal....making me smile is just a peace of cake for you I think...show me your face then I will be smiling...

never expect you can be together with me...because I am not that good...just let it be...just enjoy the time when we are together...when we are seperate..just temporaly forget each other...=(

I need a scar...I need a painful scar...so once I see the scar...I can remind myself to study hard or what...A scar................

Mr houng Mr houng Mr houng....be something that has value please...

Houng Houng Houng...study hard please...

An extra post for my own feeling recently...

2009-09-07T09:10:00.000-07:00

I feel like I am not needed by anyone...
Or maybe yes? But as what identity ?god knows...

Father's company is facing a big financial problem now ...and probably could close it...
Erm...No idea but I just never worry about that...few more years...then I can join the society and start working, start earning money...

A certificate...It is just a paper...but guess what...that peace of paper could decide what kind of life would you have in the future...Driving BMW? or just drinking A&W(soft drink)?....

I am tired of seeking a true love, a girl that should belong to me ....I have no idea... maybe it never exists in the world..??I am done...
I will just let everything goes by what god have planned...
She is close...but she is far too...She seems like mine, but she is not mine...

Spend hundred and ten percent on your studies please Mr houng...Never let you parents feel disappoint but instead, make them feel proud to have a son like you...

I am single, and I will always be single...
Love is just something that I should not touch...it can be lovely, it can be painful as well...

HUMAN BEING ARE UNPREDICTABLE.....SCARY...

....Monday...

2009-09-07T08:45:00.000-07:00

erm...woke up at 9.30 something...took a shower and picked miss ding up around 11...
she suggested to have lunch at Oldtown...Not bad though..

met Eunice there and I ordered omega egg and a cup of tea..
having chit chat until twelve twenty?Miss ding and Eunice gotta go for class...

walking alone to library...studied my account and also started the book which were given by my uncle maybe a year ago? just done 6 chapters for accounting...wondering why right? yea..I failed it..studying to prepare for supp paper...lapsap me...

omg...the book so called How to write and speak better really not for my level...
just the introduction part took me an hour to finish it...3 pages only...spent most of the time for checking out their meaning..new words, new friends^^"

3 pm something...Eunice called me and she accompanied me to walk back to my car and throw all the heavy stuff into the car...turned back to mph to meet miss ding then...

just for awhile...maybe not longer than an hour? all gao dim gym ed...
Miss ding's friend sent her home and I gotta send Eunice...met mr * at mph...feeling strange...and just trying to walk away.. feel not comfortable...

We were not heading to Eunice's home but instead went to a TONG SHUI shop that's located nearby leisure mall...

these were what we have ordered....

sharing this with Eunice...

Funny girl...seems like so easy to get satisfy with TONG SHUI...

dabao some for miss ding and miss ding's mami...^^ yea..her cute mami...

sent eunice home then balik rumah myself...on the way back...I collected my salary from boss...
its just 300+?money is always not enough...

passing my night time with moody status again...leave me alone...

Boring Sunday...

2009-09-06T02:50:00.000-07:00

Is it because of staying at home...I am feeling not well whole this day...feel like my digestive system is not working, not running...feel strange and feel like wanna vomit again after having some food...

yesterday was suddenly woke up because of headache...It's terrible...it was so..painful...
woke up and took a panadol...slept again after lying on the bed for more than an hour...scary..but not going to check it...

Miss ding Miss ding....I am so sorry about what I have said to you...maybe it is going to be cancel...you know what I mean...I really got no mood to go...maybe change a date ,make it later or what?erm...talk about it again I think?

I need fresh air I need to be sweat...tomorrow is our giam bui day...ready to run like hell to keep fit...haha...get rids of my fat oil...only I will shopping for my new shirt...If I could save up some money...

There are so many things to do ..but I not dare to do? how coward...
Guess no gf no love during college?haha...I will never meet a good girl I think...I am not that lucky...can I tell everyone come get me if you like me?I AM AVAILABLE? I just need an accompany more than girl friend...an accompany that can always stay with me most of the while...

Easy to get friend..easy to lose friend...this is me...Mr houng...

I guess I have many splite personalities? I can be funny, I can be lonely, I can be lovely...
I can pretend one of them...beware of Me....I am always pretending...

I don't know when I am really happy..laugh from heart...
I don't know what for I feel lonely...
I don't know who to treat them lovely...

I AM FAKE...

another day with full activities and no gap again!!!!

2009-09-05T16:33:00.000-07:00

Saturday morning
Early in the morning..went to sg chua basketball court as usual to meet my friend..reached there around 8 but don't think that I was the early one...they were both playing games ed..=P

This time really feel so great..No idea but I just enjoy the game today...but could see that..Houng..you should do more gym...you physical...were much weaker than last time...You could not run fast ...you were just like ah pek...just for awhile then KO~ >.<''

After finished playing games it was about 11?was having lunch with them...talk loudly and LOL in the restaurent...who cares...and I think the staffs so used to already...because we always do this...=P

HAIYA! FORGOT TO TAKE PHOTO FOR MY SET!!SHIT..=(

went back home after that and having some chit chat with miss ng in msn before shower... yes~planned for an outing with miss ding...picked her at leisure mall after she finished her job interview...two something? then headed to MID VALLEY... found a damn nice parking...just beside the entrance to shopping mall ^^

while lepak...Miss ding received a message from maxis? welcome to mid valley blabla bla or something like that...some funny conversation started..=D

Miss ding: hey houng! how come they know I am now at mid valley one?
Houng:don't know? why don't you try to reply them?
Miss ding: reply what?
Houng: wei! how the fuck you know my number or where am I ..
Miss ding:........................................==''

bought the tickets before having some..food? It was a long queue...haha...line up for about twenty minutes only get our ticket!

We have tried a damn nice porridge at the food court ...it was cheap!! just rm 4 per set?yummy yummy!! swt...after finished oni Miss ding reminds me...houng== haven take photo for food lar ....=( again.. nvm lu...cam whore then ^^

went to toilet before movie, came out and miss ding was waiting for me like a man..?means? I was the gal?=='this scene repeated few times...

I love you Beth Cooper 4.10pm

This movie just make me laugh like hell ...XD
I have been training this for many years...try my WET BLADE!!!!haha...said by Rich...lol( watch it and you will know what I am talking about ...=D)

nice decoration in the middle of mid valley mall...

after movie..driving around and slowly...coz we both got no idea to have our dinner!!!went back to cheras again..omg...but then accidently found this restaurent...decided to have a try...^^!

our drinks...

my set..

miss ding geh~

the environment was..just too comfortable and lovely!!just like having dinner at home...feel friendly to have our dinner here...and those strangers just like part of our family...=X that was cool!

What kind of decoration is this ==" tanglung with durian?and fruit?!

A Tan coffee shop! we will come back again!!

after that went to miss ding's house and meet with her parents...going yulek!!
having some chit chat with her mom while waiting for her dad..she was friendly^^ and cute haha...

its kinda different with Johor one...ghost festival event?this one more simple but I like it ...

haha...few taoist were throwing something down from the stage...attracted us to have a look...just something nonsense and dono why all people wan it..but then when they were throwing bracelet...ciong ar~ but finished ...swt...lame...

Mr Houng buying ice cream~!^^

sent miss ding and her mami back home and daddy wanna stay there and watch...
I remember what Miss ding have said...stay here and watch lar...you don't want to go back also...macam budak...

HAHA!!

balik rumah lor houngzai! but then sleeping not well...

gal...never blame yourself please...

2009-09-04T10:52:00.000-07:00

I did not say you hurt me or what...it was my own willing to do these...
you could just let me do whatever I like ...

I do believe that some one's happiness is always related by some one else...
you won't be able to feel happy if you are alone...
I won't hesitate, no more no more...this is what I wanna tell myself ...

I need no love because I am not deserved to have it ...
Well...today your tear dropping non stop...at the same time...my heart bleeding non stop as well...

Miss you badly but worry about you more ...stop crying, please girl...
The more tear come out from your eyes...that means the more useless I am...
That means I am failed to protect you...failed to cheer you up...failed to be your guardian...

Keep the message you ask me to decide whether wanna delete it or not ...
I sent it to you and I will make it...6 years is nothing...I can break the record...

Being together does not mean that we must be couple...we can stay with each other...caring each other...show up when one of us need each other...

My night view ...always just black in color...Do you mind to be the star? to make my life more colorful....??

Friday.... morning....gal...

2009-09-03T16:58:00.000-07:00

Another day that I slept for 4 hours again...Maybe just because my nap before night was too long? or it's because of I was missing some one again?

Anyway I should be going college today...but the tutorial class for writing has been canceled...
What can I do for today...

Yesterday night...I was chatting with my friend..miss joc...was asking about the color lens...guess I am going to have one...wanna try it...its quite cheap although its with power...so..why not?
haha...anyway I never worry that people says "houng you are so gay..that's for gal lar.." such thing...I am who I am....I do everything for myself and it doesnt matter what people think of you...doesnt it?

if yesterday that post was for miss ding...then this is for you girl....

I like you since the first time I have met you...
No reason...No why...I just like you...

maybe you might think that ..how can a guy like a girl just by one sight? but I just did..and honestly I was not telling lie to you...I didn't mean that I must be your bf...but instead...I just felt that it was my responsibility to make you happy...to accompany you when you were unhappy anytime..or anywhere...

You shouldn't say that you made my life tougher or more suffering this kind of things...

When you tired...just stand still and I will be there for you...caring you on my back...
When you unhappy...I will be there...need no conversation...because I know that you are just need an accompany...
When you crying...my shoulder is twenty four hours for you...a call...a message...from you then twenty minutes later I will stand in front of you..

I was not trying to avoid you...I just didn't want to make you think too much...I was trying to let you fix you problem first...So I chose to stay away first...

Don't worry...no matter what happen...you will still be my best friend...just like miss ding...
happy to make friend with you two...my luck have been finished used when I have you two as my best friend..

to Miss Ding...

2009-09-03T10:07:00.000-07:00

I promised you I wont hurt myself...

I promised nothing I will hide from you...

I promised you I will always be your best friend...

I promised you that we will GB together...

I promised you =) will always put on my face...

I cannot make 100% promise but at least I will try my best...

Not many friends like you I have got(maybe I don't even have one)...that can share all the things...because we both knew that we won't like each other...so we can talk or share what as we want to..Have been searching a friend like this for a long time but it's just damn difficult...now I got it...and I will appreciate it...

I got a certain amount of BROTHER beside me...but then...they are just for entertaining or sport maybe?
Man will never be a good listener when you got something to share...they might just sitting there...words which enters their ear from left side...next second..its going out from right side...so..what for you telling them?

What I used to do when I wanted to release my stress was always related with knife..
I think you could guess what Im talking about...but I will no longer do it...to worry my friends...
It's easy to make friend...but it's not easy to find a good one...

I am really happy to have a friend like you...

too sudden...too strange...too faking hate these...

2009-09-03T09:53:00.000-07:00

recently..really so much things happened around me...what I have known..what I have seen...what I have heard...

suddenly...hate by some people...
suddenly...emo like hell...
suddenly...feel like wanna cut my hand...
suddenly...wanna be alone...

problems occurs any time...any where...
come on...form three's feeling is coming back I guess...Lcly behavior?wad also don care..?crazy?..scary?..

I always love some one that I should not love...what the fuck else I can choose...

guess what..houng, you have been cursed by some one else...you will not have true love in your entire of life....no love...only loneliness....

some time ...you just cant be yourself...you need to pretend...you need a mask...
to hide something...to obtain something?

mr *, I don reli faking care how you hate me ...the only thing I can say is...I did not do anything wrong...

welcome every one...mr houng's space is reopen now...its all mine...I will shout out every faking word I like from now on...hit me if you hate me...FUCK ^^o0o

I mean it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=( >=(

sick but still sing k==" houng u r pro! lolx...

2009-09-01T08:08:00.000-07:00

Early in the morning went to pick miss pm up coz she was having transport problem ^^"
nvm lar...coz I nid to go college also wad =)

dangerous move!I was taking photo while driving!

jam==

Okay...after that went to Lrt station and picked eunice to college..
waiting for miss ding, ah lee and eunice to fix up their stuff at office....

then headed to balakong jusco to SING K~!=)

random photo here...

lee's singing style..unique...=)

SORRY LAR~ some of the pictures kinda blur~ try my best next time =)

long time din go back hometown ed...=)

2009-09-01T07:45:00.000-07:00

As I told in the previous post...I was driving back to hometown at sunday night...^^

my uncle said Im big big boss ed== busy with my business ....XD

but then...feel good to see them all healthy =)

nothing much to write in this post but just share some photo ^^

always eat much when I back to hometown ^^ hehe...

My cousin's daughter^^ cute =)

why they are both so tired? =="

walking around and just taking photo^^

CC room for my cousin and me!! playing foc all the day!

at night went to kampung tat i used to live for the ghost festival event..not much people..

gao dim^^ so many pictures==....haha

Im haven done for today^^

2009-08-30T17:41:00.000-07:00

CONTINUE...

After sent miss ding back to home...6.pm + something only..=(
dated GS for movie again!! haha....

we chose UP~its not really nice...but funny^^ haha....

but during watching..got child crying...how annoying >=(
took this picture after movie in the toilet...got people behind me =(

after finished its about 9 pm? drove back home....and suddenly felt like wanna go back hometown..XD feel much better ed...I think it's no problem right? ^^

after shower and packed up some clothes..went petrol station to full tank my car ^^then bought two redbull drinks...dowan fall asleep ler...haha...DANGEROUS!!!!

kinda enjoy driving at night....not much car...but I din speeding...80~90 oni...

reached hometown at 1 am then sleep like pig ed =)

FIRST TIME I FULLY USED MY DAY LIKE THIS...NO GAP!!!haha...

thank you gs thank you wuguai!!!

^^V

Happiest day in the holiday!! =)

2009-08-30T16:26:00.000-07:00

Saturday midnight...miss ding msned me and asked for outing...omg....that's what I have been waiting for ..coz Im sick and keep staying at my room and its really gonna kill me!!!! =(

Sunday morning...

I did not want to follow my parents to go back Johor, home town....coz I was still feeling not well and I think I couldn't stand for sitting 3 hours in the car..=="

Early in the morning ....confirm with miss ding that Im on for outing, she was on too...
woke up at 9 something...shower then 11.40 something reached miss ding's house and picked her up...was still hesitating which direction should my stereng turn to...at the end decided to go TS again =)

Reached TS's carpark...

Miss ding: why today not much car one =="
Houng: still early mar =.=" 11++ something only...
Miss ding: sien liao lor...few people sure not good to gai gai...

haha...human being..they are strange...when too many people they say crowded,no good ..when shopping complex few people oni...no good also oO"? haha...

Went to cinema first to check what movie to watch...

Last decision...

ORPHAN!!!!!

movie was on two twenty..went to sg wang and tried 台湾bla bla ...nice ler ^^

my drink^^ms ding said I cannot have cold drink =( this one hot d ..

miss ding's drink...nice ler! but cold one..cant try again =(

My set...^^ damn nice le ^^

her toast..damn big..but she says not nice..oO"?

random photo time ^^

after finished our lunch...stepped out..and right side...yea!! basketball machine!!!=) we both basketball machine lOver lar~!hurt my finger...=="

she pose yeah~ V some more...=="

TIMES UP!!movie's time!!!

miss ding SUK like a wu guai all the way!!!! hahahahahahahahahaha....
but then..it was like disgusting more than scary...we both said ..stressed all the way!!

haha...finally movie finished ed..=) tat stupid orphan!! so difficult to die huh?!!?..gai gai around after movie coz miss ding 6 pm something oni wanna go home...going KlCC with family ^^ for book fair......

yea!! I found this!!!Looking for this for long time ed~!!! finally!!! miss ding said..wear it on wear it on!! take picture ^^

time to go back le lar =(...saw mis ding's funny and cute mami again ^^ haha....say hi ^^

thank you for the outing Miss ding !!!

I am going to rate my mood by typing =) ...=(...T^T.. >=( from now on ^^

for today ..=) =) =)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)
=damn hapi!!

TO BE CONTINUE......

sick but still hang out....I nid fresh air!!

2009-08-29T07:59:00.000-07:00

Morning

went to sg chua basketball court to play basketball with my frens....
have been some time never play basketball with them already..due to busy with working, exam...haha...sorry lar....from now on I am free...No more working....!!date me plz~ ^^

after finished playing basketball with them then Dad asked me to drive the car shop to service which was kinda near with my house...

frens kinda disappointed when they heard I can't have lunch with them....what to do ^^ no car to use ..>.< style="font-weight: bold;">

Noon
After finished lunch...went to their house and took a shower....after tat headed to cheras to have some pool game ^^ then went to leisure mall at 4 something...planned to watch LAUGHING GOR ^^ NICE MOVIE!!!must try!!!had A&W before the movie started....

lol...yan says he doesnt need hand to drive the car...Lmao!!..

me me ^^ with mask....=P

A&w....WTH....1st time and also last time I will have this i think...
took more than 10 minutes just to order 3 sets...

We took 3~4 minutes to finish these....regret why we din go mac d...their size like kid's meal oni ==...

A&W...never try this anymore!

tata...go home

dream you again...??

2009-08-27T17:22:00.000-07:00

Nice weather in the early morning...raining...first time I feel cold without opening air cond ...

Fine houng...since you need to be isolate for 2 days..what you can do is just blogging, gaming, sleeping, eating only ....ops...and also taking the stupid medicine....

I dream about you again...But this time its different...I don't feel happy at all...
What I have realized was...you were not belong to me ...you've got some one else...
So decided to keep this friendship at this level...not going to exceed...
I will still love you...but instead its friend's love...

Honestly Mr lonely doesn't really trust true love is exist...at least for me ...love, cannot be share...

that's all for my morning part....to be continue...

H1N1???????omg

2009-08-27T08:51:00.000-07:00

Started flu and cough yesterday ...then just now went to the clinic nearby my house to check...

Doctor: when did you have these sickness.?
Houng: since yesterday...
Doctor: pull up your shirt I need to check your lung...

doing some checking...

Your lung is no problem...so I cannot make sure that you got H1n1.. but you need to stay at home ..try not to get out ..after two days come again..I need to check again...

omg...omg...omg...

Mc Mc~

These are what Im gonna face in this 2 days....

Never forget to take picture to upload coz some one says she likes it =)

left eye and right eye are kinda different...aren't they?

I will get well soon and hang out ^^

Night...time to celebrate~

2009-08-26T17:09:00.000-07:00

Wondering who suggested to have KFC yesterday...I cant eat oily and fried food lar...TOT~
I prefer to go chinese restaurent lar!!!! stupid geh...

Having cough and sorethroat...what I could have was just the potato and coke....=="

this was what they have ordered ...

My sisters ..=.=" lame pose ...=.="

Me and sister...purposely looking somewhere else...new style ==''

My mom =D

My birthday DAD~ ^^V

The cake that I have chosen~~ special right? ^^

Again~ my work ^^ nice writing rite ..keke =D

happy birthday lar~ ^^

...First time I feel tat Im tat lonely..

2009-08-26T16:58:00.000-07:00

Yesterday finished working at 6.30....dad's birthday will be celebrating at 11 or twelve something ...but then really wish to watch a movie...I havent watched many movies...009,G.I.JOE, orphan, UP and others....

Called fren..
du...du...
Houng: ehh..free to hang out? wanna watch movie ler..
some one: raining day...dowan lar...
Houng:...okay lar...nvm..next time lur...

I repeated doing this for few times.. which means I called kinda many people...
all...cannot or...lazy...

Decided to watch movie alone next time...

Nothing to do .....

2009-08-24T09:24:00.000-07:00

I wrote this when I was working...

don misunderstanding...Im not curi tulang....

No customer that time...

Actually I wrote something else...but I cant post it sorry guys...kinda short for today..

Working environment

2009-08-23T19:04:00.000-07:00

Used to work as a happy family!=) USED TO....!!! wondering how many are left now...
Boss and elvy

Honestly and seriously.... I used to enjoy my working time...with all chinese colleagues and two sabahan orang asli...
Lovely kak....funny person...and nice~=)

They were hardworking...no laziness...no arguement....the atmosphere was perfect...

Recently really tired...I need to cover more things due to new colleague has joined in...

They are so...(HARDWORKING!)=(

But now when its time to work...my mind will say (wtf..shit...time to work again!) =(

Im going to quit soon...I think...last semester is coming...for foundation year..

Im tired...really...tired....

Tired...Im really tired....from spiritual and physical.....

2009-08-23T18:44:00.000-07:00

I got no idea again...my mind always full with her image every morning when I wake up...

But a lot of questions exist in my mind....is that possible?is that possible?is that possible?

There are more and more questions...but what I do is just avoid from them and trying to ignore them....I not dare to face the truth...

Don't let me go.....

SICK sick .....

2009-08-22T21:36:00.000-07:00

Don't be silly Mr lonely...(Fever as the start of the day...)

I thought that blogging would be the best place to shout out my problems and feeling...

But then I found it I was wrong...no such thing....

blog might be the best place for people to keep an eye on you too...

Think wisely what you gonna write...you need to pay for it if u did a mistake..

Usually will upload something happy or funny only....

Blog is just like ..doing something to kill your time...not my space...

No worry and I am going to step out....I mean it....

take some rest and 5pm need to work again....=)