It's not like I don't want to text you with da lovely way....
It's not like I don't want to be close with you....
Not just yesterday but I have been thinking about this question and asking myself for a couple days already...
Yep...honestly I feel happy when Hong receive your lovely message everyday...
You were like so care about me...wanted to know what I was doing every minute, every second...
That would be perfect if you were my gf...but the fact was...nope..
What if one day you find a guy that you like...Will you still care about me like present?
will you......?
This is just too complicated and ....insecure....
And the best solution I have figured out is....let's be friend...kay?
.....lastly, I would like to apologize to you Vivian.....Now I know what did you mean by "this is just so insecure" last time...I just experienced it....
I can still remember how I get this name...
It was given by Jesmyn, because she said I look emo when she first met me...
That's true but after some time I became better....
But now the problem comes again....
So.. Emo is back.....
Actually start from Sunday 10pm....I forced myself not to sleep as long as I can...
But then I was only able to make it 1 day plus....28 hours+ only ...
Okay, I know I am nuts...but this way is much better than hurting myself I guess....bored with the way already...
Woi, find some activities for me to join lar wei...I don't want to make myself crazy coz of her, the one who used to be my only one.....the only one I trusted and loved the most....yea..past tense, USED TO......
Unexpectedly this sem I have met quite many of new friends huh =)
Some time I feel like the rule is true....You gain something new when you lost something....
Recently become slightly closer with hewmeiteng, yatyishan without reason =)
Both also crazy maybe? enjoyed the other day when we were chatting in OLD TOWN during break time....But I need some time to used to the way they laugh..WITH BREAK!!and AK 47 bullet keep shooting on your face...==" HAO SHUI GIN..XD
another gang huh...Panda, Suefei, and Angeline....
Panda always call me pandI==" which mean pig in TAMIL...most probably learnt from Angeline..and she says if we combine together will become PANDAI==" what kind of theory is this...=D
Suefei =)a sweet girl but like seldom see her smiling..She can speak english well but some time mix with chinese and malay =P A girl who likes to eat ice cream so so much ...I owe her many cup of it =) hahaha!
Angeline...=) An active Indian girl ....hahaha...her sonsy and like positive thinking behaviour leave me a good impression..XD And I was shocked when she said this to me :" Ni de yan jing....hen mei.." HAHA.....stunned...and say thank you to her...she learnt it from panda>.<"
there are still many of them ....and Im happy to have more more more friends=D come on babeh~ hahaha!
Yeap....have been some time never update my blog...and some of my friends started nagging me...=P
Recall to the chap gor mei...the last day of chinese new year...
most probably people were celebrating for this special date for....
But chap gor mei wasn't a good date for me ...
When I was only 12 years old...My aunt left me and went to heaven...
My parents have to work hard since I was a kid...they went to KL and my aunt was the one who taking care of me since I was a kid...In JOHOR...I call her as AH YANG...
She taught me a lot of things =) without pressuring me ...
We stayed at KAMPUNG which unlike the big city, which has many entertainment...
Guli and toys was all my life in that broken, old frame house...But warmth was everywhere...
Some time wealth isn't a good thing...It might separate or make the gap between family members bigger...
My uncles worked hard and earned a lot of money from singapore...bought a freaking big house for my grandma....and that's the begining of warmth in that house start cooling..
I could still clearly remember...that night when I was leaving hospital and back to KL from JOHOR..Aunt said this to me...
APPRECIATE YOUR FAMILY MEMBER APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE...IF NOT YOU WILL REGRET WHEN YOU LOST THE CHANCE....
She past away just about when I reached KL.....
You left me, but you will never disappear in my heart..my mind...
WELL~ finally I get back to KL...and so~ of course the first thing to do is to make an outing with friends!!!!
I dated suetying, mei ling, pei yi, pei shi, zhen yih to go gai gai!!!!
ish! forgot to charge my phone's battery...so did not take many photo...==" T^T
Both of us meet at TIME SQUARE at 2? some of them were hungry so went to 士林to have some food =)
planned to watch movie actually...but non of us book for the ticket..so =)FULL~LOL。。。
At the end we decided to sing K=)
although it was a bit not worth to sing...but chinese new year only once in a year...=D
The room was fulled so we need to wait until 5 pm..and we "LEPAK" at lowyat for a quite long time =) accompany pei yi and suet ying looking for their laptop accessory...
KARAOKE SECTION~~
Suet ying and I =)
seriously I like this lovely friend so so much =) lots of reason =D cannot be explained in a minute...=P
zhen yih and I~
PEIYI>>>SUETYING>>>MEI LING~
fu came to join us in the half way =) lol...
After sent the ladies home...kekekeke....
next round was ah yien's house...GAMBLING GAMBLING~
Peope who participated were ME~DESMUND~ZHI XIN AND HIS GF, AND WEIFU only...
reached yien's house and saw weifu's car there.....boring and so... I DID THIS!!!!! =)
Finished our gambling at 3am ==" lost some money~ T0T...
CNY wad~ don't care so much!!! just ENJOY IT!!
HUAT AR~~~~!!!!!!!
Erm...all of my good friend should know that I pass my chinese new year at my hometown every year =)
That's why I never have the chance to go bai nian with my friends in KL >.<
But though...it was quite warm to spend this special festival with family =D
My family and I reached hometown on Saturday afternoon..it was quite late actually...should go back earlier to help my uncle decorate or prepare the stuffs =P
Can you see what I am doing ~~ hahaha...it's for decoration and it was my very first time trying this~!! IKEBANA? nope....just a kid simply playing =)
Uncle aunty were busying preparing food for TUAN YUAN FAN but I just holding my phone+camera capture this~ capture that to keep as a good memory...
They prepare so so...many food but every year also we could not finish them ...LOL!
At night...cousin bring something special for us...hahaha....
He brought uncook charqui...or can be called as BA GUA~
And we had a little BBQ section...kinda special huh XD
12 am...hokkian need to bai bai ...erm...I didn't really know what we were praying actually =)
but who cares~ TIMES FOR FIRECRACKER!!!!
I like on of this pictures =) I captured myself holding the firecracker but at the same time I didn't expose my face! so mata cannot catch me!! NEH NEH NEH BU BU~!! =P
AIR POLLUTION!!! HAHAHA...
I captured some of them only because I was busying...busying playing =)
THE NEXT DAY WENT TO VISIT RELATIVE FROM DAD'S SIDE...
Could'nt really imagine this...my cousins...almost all of them were married and have few children...few years ago we were still GIN NA(budak) that only know how to play only swt...
hahaha....I keep telling my friends that I was boring at hometown but actually..I SHOULD APPRECIATE ALL OF THIS WHILE I STILL CAN...what's more important than family...
FAMILY SUPPORT YOU WHEN YOU NEED HELP....FORGIVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU DID....DOING LOTS OF THING THAT'S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD....
You know what..I always think that I am a dual character guy...such a freak people....
I was being emotional all the while recently....the only moment I laughed and felt happy was when I playing game with friends....
I keep quiet when I am home...facing laptop and my notes or text book due to nothing else I can do...
Thinking of dating but who to date?
Think in positive way that might be good for me...
Because it motivated me to study hard...
Time passes very fast, after two years I am going out to society and make myself as an employee...
two years ain't long...without realizing I have finished my foundation already...
Anyway financial problem that occurs in my family does bothering me ....
But end's up I suggest my mom some very simple solutions...
1st~ I study hard and obtain a good result...
2nd~I come out to work then I support the family as a man...
3rd~Im gonna make myself rich as fast as possible...
hahaha...
this is why I love the lyrics of "I believe I can fly"...
IF I CAN SEE IT, THEN I CAN DO IT,
IF I JUST BELIEVE IT, THERE NOTHING TO IT .....=)
