Mr. LoNely

Mr lonely needs more friends...=)

星期三-晴天吧。。。

又一次中午才起身。。。不是我想睡到热晒三竿,可是在夜晚里实在睡不着。。失眠吗?
确定的是自己最近都很不开心。。。


最近传的很火热的fb自杀事件,让我想起表姐。。。
但是却不觉得那男的可怜,而是白痴。。。。。。

早上MPH来调查关于狗的。。。十有八九是隔壁的白痴report。。。
无言,但是想说买屋子真得看好跟谁是令居。。。。


简的来说,心情真的是很不好。。。。。

应该超过一个月没有回到外婆家了吧。。。
感觉好像都变了?

一个早晨。。。吃了早餐后也就顺便走到了外婆家后院看看。。
羽毛球场的边线已经变得模糊了。。。小时候表哥、表姐、表弟、表妹们一起嬉戏的影子再也看不见了。。。

我们都长大了。。。也都体会到种种的分离。。。大表姐去新山了。。二表姐去世了。。。表哥去新加坡工作了。。。

脑海里什么都没有。。只是想着珍惜现在还能拥有的。。。

曾经,
喜欢过一个跟我同年同月同日出生的女孩。。。

曾经,
想过真的要等她。。。

曾经,
以为她真的是喜欢我的。。。

曾经,
真的以为会在一起。。。

最近头脑真的都是她。。发梦都是她。。。为什么。。。=(
那么的突然。。。
那么的诡异。。。

在facebook不小心找到了她的profile...可是。。。还在犹豫要不要add她。。。
只是按下滑鼠。。竟然需要那么多的。。勇气。。。。。。。。

没用。。。。=(

只是看title肯定不会明白是怎么一回事吧?哈哈。。。

白色。。因为我们都穿着白色的衣服。。。

三人行。。当然是我,bell,还有jia啦。。=D

25?..她们说今天不要花费超过25?...我想我超过了XD

不减肥咖啡日。。不减肥忘记是谁的提议,咖啡吗?bel bel 带我们去了一家不错的咖啡店哦!=)听说是极少数人回去的。。通常都可以在那里碰上出名的blogger~那天就碰到了两个~但是我不认识哦~=)少玩blog啦~没有bel那么专业。。。



其实在很久之前已经想过要搞这个三人行了。。可是哈哈。。。bell跟jia都很忙呢。。。到现在才是我们三个第一次一起出去哦。。。=="

没有电影,没有血拼。。。
取而代之的是闲聊,聚聚。。然后和下午茶。。。。

不记得jia对我说了多少次不好意思。。。可是事实上我的确没有闷着。。
哈哈。。在听着你们最近发生的事情。。。也是我的乐趣之一。。。不说话?应该是这些日子都是自己一个人吧。。。没有说话的习惯了。。。。

无论如何都满期待下次的outing o...

Now I found that I like typing...hahahaha...

it's pretty cool and pretty fun when you do typing in a super fast speed and don't need to look at the keyboard which I am now doing =) hahahahaha....

Well I am now having my so called "holiday"...but then I more prefer to college life...at least I hang out, at least I got something else to do...

Honestly I don't like staying at home...for no reason..I am just like a puppet..don't talk, don't smile....and just locking myself in da room...it's like a jail? or...hotel room? ishk....

This afternoon just received a letter from UCSI...yep... My guess was right, it's da bill for my next semester fees....Omg ....I wonder what's wrong with their mind...I selected the same subjects with my friends..for my fren, the warehousing subject was declined and mine was approved...wth...??!!!

hahaha...feel kinda insecure to study in this college but then what to do...I have decided not to change college again from the moment I stepped into this college...the only choice I have now is to finish them as soon as possible then step out to the society and start working ....

Many of them asked me, "Houng, any plan during your holiday? "
hahaha...the answer is no...~!
No vacation, no plan and not even thinking about any outing with friends yet...=)
If that's possible will just keep staying at home...and YEAH!!! I said I wanted to keep fit...and now I am trying so so hard =) eat less~ force myself to do pumping and set up...=) with I will be succeed~

Dying my hair could be cool I think? hahaha...to change a new look....since I never put any color on my hair ? erm...what about do some changes on my clothes? well these will cost some money..hahaha...

My uncle always remind me to enjoy my college life while I still can~ =) yea I know I should~ And probably I am gonna meet some new friends? as I always do =) hahahaha..
I feel that my friends are just like the theory in account....when debit exists, for sure there will be credit..hahaha....what I am trying to say is....every sem I got new friends...and then at the same time I lost some friends too.....wonder why ..=) even we said we will be best friend for forever...promise means nothing for human being =) hahaha


LASTLY~ JUST TO REMIND PEOPLE!!!
EARTH IS SICK NOW.....PLEASE TAKE CARE OF IT ...OR ELSE I THINK WHAT'S HAPPENING IN DA MOVIE 2012 WILL BE REVEALED SOON!~!!~!~!~!~!

Yesterday was actually the day I have been waiting for a long time ..the day that I was going to meet my Mina..the best girl I have ever met....

Before we met, you told me something about our relationship, you said we were just friend and unlike last time...

Ends up you were the one who hold my hand and the one who called me HONEY....You said so but you didn't want to do so..right?
You still missing the days we holding each other hand and stick like a lovely bird...right?

And so far...you were the only girl who made me feel the most comfortable when going out with...I could hold your hand, some time hug you, or even a kiss maybe when I couldn't control myself? I didn't need to hide anything or care the sight from others...which I seriously didn't like.

I could even remember what you have taught me, what we did and many things....you changed me and I am now still affecting by you..

Always enjoy the moment in the cinema with you...coz I can hold your little hand when watching movie..

You were just so sweet and lovely...but when you left me...I was back to alone again...I got no one to love...

It's not like I don't want to text you with da lovely way....
It's not like I don't want to be close with you....

Not just yesterday but I have been thinking about this question and asking myself for a couple days already...
Yep...honestly I feel happy when Hong receive your lovely message everyday...
You were like so care about me...wanted to know what I was doing every minute, every second...

That would be perfect if you were my gf...but the fact was...nope..

What if one day you find a guy that you like...Will you still care about me like present?
will you......?

This is just too complicated and ....insecure....

And the best solution I have figured out is....let's be friend...kay?

.....lastly, I would like to apologize to you Vivian.....Now I know what did you mean by "this is just so insecure" last time...I just experienced it....

I can still remember how I get this name...
It was given by Jesmyn, because she said I look emo when she first met me...

That's true but after some time I became better....
But now the problem comes again....

So.. Emo is back.....
Actually start from Sunday 10pm....I forced myself not to sleep as long as I can...
But then I was only able to make it 1 day plus....28 hours+ only ...

Okay, I know I am nuts...but this way is much better than hurting myself I guess....bored with the way already...

Woi, find some activities for me to join lar wei...I don't want to make myself crazy coz of her, the one who used to be my only one.....the only one I trusted and loved the most....yea..past tense, USED TO......

Unexpectedly this sem I have met quite many of new friends huh =)

Some time I feel like the rule is true....You gain something new when you lost something....

Recently become slightly closer with hewmeiteng, yatyishan without reason =)
Both also crazy maybe? enjoyed the other day when we were chatting in OLD TOWN during break time....But I need some time to used to the way they laugh..WITH BREAK!!and AK 47 bullet keep shooting on your face...==" HAO SHUI GIN..XD

another gang huh...Panda, Suefei, and Angeline....

Panda always call me pandI==" which mean pig in TAMIL...most probably learnt from Angeline..and she says if we combine together will become PANDAI==" what kind of theory is this...=D

Suefei =)a sweet girl but like seldom see her smiling..She can speak english well but some time mix with chinese and malay =P A girl who likes to eat ice cream so so much ...I owe her many cup of it =) hahaha!

Angeline...=) An active Indian girl ....hahaha...her sonsy and like positive thinking behaviour leave me a good impression..XD And I was shocked when she said this to me :" Ni de yan jing....hen mei.." HAHA.....stunned...and say thank you to her...she learnt it from panda>.<"

there are still many of them ....and Im happy to have more more more friends=D come on babeh~ hahaha!

Yeap....have been some time never update my blog...and some of my friends started nagging me...=P

Recall to the chap gor mei...the last day of chinese new year...
most probably people were celebrating for this special date for....
But chap gor mei wasn't a good date for me ...

When I was only 12 years old...My aunt left me and went to heaven...
My parents have to work hard since I was a kid...they went to KL and my aunt was the one who taking care of me since I was a kid...In JOHOR...I call her as AH YANG...

She taught me a lot of things =) without pressuring me ...
We stayed at KAMPUNG which unlike the big city, which has many entertainment...
Guli and toys was all my life in that broken, old frame house...But warmth was everywhere...

Some time wealth isn't a good thing...It might separate or make the gap between family members bigger...
My uncles worked hard and earned a lot of money from singapore...bought a freaking big house for my grandma....and that's the begining of warmth in that house start cooling..

I could still clearly remember...that night when I was leaving hospital and back to KL from JOHOR..Aunt said this to me...

APPRECIATE YOUR FAMILY MEMBER APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE...IF NOT YOU WILL REGRET WHEN YOU LOST THE CHANCE....

She past away just about when I reached KL.....
You left me, but you will never disappear in my heart..my mind...

WELL~ finally I get back to KL...and so~ of course the first thing to do is to make an outing with friends!!!!

I dated suetying, mei ling, pei yi, pei shi, zhen yih to go gai gai!!!!

ish! forgot to charge my phone's battery...so did not take many photo...==" T^T

Both of us meet at TIME SQUARE at 2? some of them were hungry so went to 士林to have some food =)


planned to watch movie actually...but non of us book for the ticket..so =)FULL~LOL。。。

At the end we decided to sing K=)
although it was a bit not worth to sing...but chinese new year only once in a year...=D

The room was fulled so we need to wait until 5 pm..and we "LEPAK" at lowyat for a quite long time =) accompany pei yi and suet ying looking for their laptop accessory...


KARAOKE SECTION~~

Suet ying and I =)
seriously I like this lovely friend so so much =) lots of reason =D cannot be explained in a minute...=P


zhen yih and I~


PEIYI>>>SUETYING>>>MEI LING~


fu came to join us in the half way =) lol...




After sent the ladies home...kekekeke....
next round was ah yien's house...GAMBLING GAMBLING~


Peope who participated were ME~DESMUND~ZHI XIN AND HIS GF, AND WEIFU only...

reached yien's house and saw weifu's car there.....boring and so... I DID THIS!!!!! =)


Finished our gambling at 3am ==" lost some money~ T0T...

CNY wad~ don't care so much!!! just ENJOY IT!!



HUAT AR~~~~!!!!!!!

Erm...all of my good friend should know that I pass my chinese new year at my hometown every year =)

That's why I never have the chance to go bai nian with my friends in KL >.<
But though...it was quite warm to spend this special festival with family =D

My family and I reached hometown on Saturday afternoon..it was quite late actually...should go back earlier to help my uncle decorate or prepare the stuffs =P


Can you see what I am doing ~~ hahaha...it's for decoration and it was my very first time trying this~!! IKEBANA? nope....just a kid simply playing =)


Uncle aunty were busying preparing food for TUAN YUAN FAN but I just holding my phone+camera capture this~ capture that to keep as a good memory...



They prepare so so...many food but every year also we could not finish them ...LOL!


At night...cousin bring something special for us...hahaha....
He brought uncook charqui...or can be called as BA GUA~
And we had a little BBQ section...kinda special huh XD






12 am...hokkian need to bai bai ...erm...I didn't really know what we were praying actually =)
but who cares~ TIMES FOR FIRECRACKER!!!!


I like on of this pictures =) I captured myself holding the firecracker but at the same time I didn't expose my face! so mata cannot catch me!! NEH NEH NEH BU BU~!! =P



AIR POLLUTION!!! HAHAHA...


I captured some of them only because I was busying...busying playing =)



THE NEXT DAY WENT TO VISIT RELATIVE FROM DAD'S SIDE...

Could'nt really imagine this...my cousins...almost all of them were married and have few children...few years ago we were still GIN NA(budak) that only know how to play only swt...

hahaha....I keep telling my friends that I was boring at hometown but actually..I SHOULD APPRECIATE ALL OF THIS WHILE I STILL CAN...what's more important than family...

FAMILY SUPPORT YOU WHEN YOU NEED HELP....FORGIVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU DID....DOING LOTS OF THING THAT'S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD....

You know what..I always think that I am a dual character guy...such a freak people....

I was being emotional all the while recently....the only moment I laughed and felt happy was when I playing game with friends....

I keep quiet when I am home...facing laptop and my notes or text book due to nothing else I can do...

Thinking of dating but who to date?

Think in positive way that might be good for me...
Because it motivated me to study hard...

Time passes very fast, after two years I am going out to society and make myself as an employee...
two years ain't long...without realizing I have finished my foundation already...

Anyway financial problem that occurs in my family does bothering me ....
But end's up I suggest my mom some very simple solutions...


1st~ I study hard and obtain a good result...
2nd~I come out to work then I support the family as a man...
3rd~Im gonna make myself rich as fast as possible...

hahaha...

this is why I love the lyrics of "I believe I can fly"...

IF I CAN SEE IT,
THEN I CAN DO IT,

IF I JUST BELIEVE I
T, THERE NOTHING TO IT .....=)

Yesterday went back jusco working for only one day ...due to my boss got not enough staff...


Dated some one for movie after I finished working...just at JUSCO...

Bought the ticket of TOOTH FAIRY...
Definitely much better than LEGION....love this movie and I love THE ROCK so so much...
every movie will be just so nice if he participates...=)

anyway...thank you for accompany my fren ...=)I appreciate that a lot....

WILL U ACCOMPANY ME AGAIN....??

She was the best or could say the funniest girl I have ever met....My dear Mina jon....

The end of the previous year...we seperated because of studies...
I seldom cry but I was crying like hell that time...=(

Recently we do contact with each other no matter in Msn or sms...
She.. asks me to get a gf...but at the same time...do not want any girl to hurt me ....>.<

Sorry I cannot do that ...hahahaha...no matter how many girls I got feel with them...
At the end I think that you are still the best one for me ...=D

I have set your photo as wallpaper in my phone...
To remind me how good you are, to remind me set studies as the priority=)

I promise you I will find a good girl if there is a chance...=)
Don't want you to worry about me anymore ..=)

We are that close but we are impossible to become couple anymore...
We are friend but somehow feel like it exceeds the limit =)?

never care what is coming tomorrow..=) just enjoy the day while we still can =)

Saturday I went to Kulai to attend my relative's wedding dinner...

Dear was so happy when she heard I was somewhere in JB....she wished to meet me at somewhere..but somehow I could not make it...I got no transport and I did not know how to get there....=(

she was so so upset when she heard that...awww...=(

Im sorry but I swear I will accompany you when you come to KL...ANY TIME....!!


The wedding dinner was quite boring....

she is the sister-in-law I always stick with since I was a kid till now =)
nothing but just feel closer if compare with the others.. =)


Saturday night after finished attending the dinner...was straight away go back to JOHOR...my grandma's house...feel more comfortable there...=X


The next day,Sunday.. I have tried these funny and cute chocolate with alcohol...they look really cute ...hahaha XD

The flavor is really different according to its design...not simply written on it....=D
but still=( I can't accept the taste when choco mix with alcohol ...hahaha

wowhu! yesterday night have a movie with my bros desmund liew and chin kee yan =)

what the fuck...we watched JU-ON...all the while I was using my jacket to cover half of my sight =.="

never try to watch scary movie with girl coz probably I will scream but not them =( hahaha!!

I got the free gift from the GSC~it was a small cup... =( what for >.<
erm...
planned to upload the pictures from ju-on but I cancel this plan last minute...I still wanna blogging =( hahahaha...later I afraid with my own blog pulak ?! xixixi


yep..I seldom outing recently~
even My ex suspects that I am gay =P hahaha...



funny thing is she keep asking me to find a gf here...
but still....I am waiting.....NO ONE BUT YOU =)

Friends? I don't care about the quantity anyway..but instead the QUALITY....

今天中午十二点半左右。。受到了嘉嘉的信息,说bel不能去outing了。。。
无奈,我已经弄好头发,lens了。。。

打了蛮多问了蛮多人。。。但是结果还是跟估计的一样。。没有人可以陪。。。

好吧。。。自己一个出吧~!

第一个目的地,剪头发~
在那之前到了银行提款,拿了我修改的裤子,才到salon~


剪完头发富跟我说他得空,可以看戏~!还有他女朋友也有来呢~
5.20的戏-the vampire assistant。。。在 TIME SQUARE~


开场之前到了附近的UNCLE DUCK吃东西。。。

他们陪我看完戏后也就回家了。。


好吧~!!!一人shopping开始~!~!~!~!

RANDOM PICTURE...







最后的收获

两件t shirt一条jeans~=)

十点了啦~回家~!

一个人走街shopping..感觉蛮不错=D 下次就自己出吧~!!

中三时,受过了伤害。。。样子问题吧。。。
第一次的暗恋,带来了很不好的回忆,养成了我现在的习惯。。。

中三伤害过我的那位,毕业后命运安排了我们读着同一间学院。。。
我是变了样。。。可是我还是记得以前怎么被你伤害。。。我报复了。。
我冷落了她,使她为了我而流泪。。。我是故意的。。。

自从那次以后没有对过任何女孩真心过。。

离开rahman,我到了british council进修我的英文。
我碰到了她,MINA...
可能是来自不同的国家,不同的生活环境吧。。她是个完全没有心机的女孩。。。

我们像发梦那样在一起了几个月。。最后为了读书而分开了。。。


离开了british council,选上了UCSI,一个新的环境,新的生活。
毕竟KL人还是会比较“复杂”。。。找不到一个真心的。。。

我又开始了“我无所谓”,“爱理不理”的生活。。。


突然间很想说出这些。。。就真的很突然。。。


每一个人的第一次,好与坏的结果,将会让将来的他生活在第一次结果的影响下,比如不同的生活,不同的习惯。。。

现在想要的口头禅。。。。关我什么事。。。

this is what I experienced......
No matter how good some one treat you .....the fact is ...people change from time to time ...

Do not put much expectation will be the best solution to avoid from getting hurt or what...


My past make me trust no one...
honesty cannot be seen from some one's face...

Few days ago some one just sad for our stuff but few days later... she is in relationship =)
I do not feel sad...maybe I am that cruel as well....I can just forget something very quickly if I want to =)....just like right click and press DELETE....it is that simple .....

what I am seeking now is true friend...not a lover ....
whee~~ wuhu~~?hahahahaha....

whee is definitely a trademark from some one=) hahahaha
and wuhu~ maybe?=)

will appreciate them ...gals that I will love them like hell but not in bf gf relationship...


Im just so damn fucking disappointed in seeking true love...=)so why don't I just forget about it =) hahahaha.....

pass my college life happily with my friends~!


whee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

伤风,咳嗽了有一些日子。。。结果?还是没有复原。。。

面对那么多说:“我喜欢你”的人,却不知道到底是不是真的。。。

伤风咳嗽可以吃药。。。 心痛呢?。。。

可以的话。。。在说声“我喜欢你”之前,可以再想想看你是不是真心的吗。。。


不是的话请离开我。。。愈远愈好。。。不要把我逼成把感情当做玩具的人。。。不会认真。。。

然而。。。伤害过我的。。。我也会躲的远远的。。。(vivian...你不被包括在内哦=) ......你是真的。。。)

希望不久的将来。。不会拍下我血淋淋的手。。。放在部落格。。。。。我神经的时候。。。是来真的哦~ O(∩_∩)O~

那么幸运的我。。。今天没有做工,约了朋友去倒数,吃东西,聚聚会~

下午两点就到了gs 家,一起打车到setapak去~

打了一下pool, 打了一下电脑。。。回到了siong的家=)

傍晚说好了跟他弟弟和朋友一起吃火锅~想不到的是他弟弟的朋友是叶子鑫。。我的朋友=="


twins?!哈哈。。。


可怜的我们来不及上山。。。traffic jam 啊!。。车停在了路边看烟花。。。哈哈。。

看完烟花到了siong家附近的cafe喝喝酒。。。叫DOLPHINE 对吧?打扑克牌~聊天~白痴。。。


四点左右吧?才回他家过夜。。安拉~他弟弟没有喝酒。。所以没有酒后驾驶。。。=)

算是开心的一天吗?。。。其实我不是很开心。。。喝酒后暂时忘记了一切。。。所以总的来说。。算开心的吧。。。。。

About Me

My photo
about me har~? normal people but wish to make more friends....=D

ah pek and I ^^

ah pek and I ^^

(o0o)? hahaha...

(o0o)? hahaha...

My target......

-Try not to be emo ...

- Try to be single but not alone...

-Try to study hard....

-Try learning how to manage time and money...

-Try learning how to just be your friend...

-Try not to cut my hand as I promised jia ....